unintention words can just hurt yvonne.
by alot.

i'm nt a toy; i've my emotions. not as and when u wan cuddle me den u hug me tight. when u are bored u just throw me one side for me to play on my own. i mean really. i nid genuine hugs. or a pat.

wad i nid now is just leave me alone.

literally i meant really alone. (jus leave me on my own) throu' the holi i really think i'm better off alone nowadays. just a walk on my own at some part of a crowded streets with the ear piece plug in ear. just an isolation of my own.

i noe i used to be someone who nid company. yes i still nid 'em now. alot. just a hug over the sms could have thrill me or make me sweet to hell. (lke today the bad day yet sarah &ying msg did make me smile) but i duno wad change me.

i guess everyone had their two sides. the cheery one. & the emo one. so pls dun blame me. dun xpect me to say funny things and blah. i dun feel cute at all now. i feel really ugly. yet its damn tough to have ppl to unds this. failure. i make friends with u. but i swear u wont be my friend forever.!!

seriously its tiring to smile and pretend i'm alrite. i'm selfish. pls let me be for this time. willful wadeva. i'm jus to tired to fake a smile having the thing i dun lke most. (a plastered mask) on my face. yet dont worry i'd be fine de. i wont be lke this forever. (just nid time).

sorry. the expectations i cant reached.
sorry. i cant even met my own.

ediited;
i've spam 3mails today. opps.
half hr more. 1 lesser day.

tml. i wan wake up feeling better.
& i'll. >.<

sth i really detest. disappointment of others over my own.