tts how i'm feeling x10000000000 times today.
ultra upset. the whole mood.
only time i really truly smiled today was the start of day. dearest wishing me jiayou for the test and presentation. and when i was ultra in an i wish i'd be isolated mode and he said thumb up for me and smile. and his my supporter. (:
but. why. even thou.. i noe.
付出的不可能和得到的成正比。可是为什么当收到的回报连付出的0.1% 都得不到时。。心情是这么差?跌到谷底的心情。 加上一连好几夜的不得安眠。。我真的累了。 好累好累。。是我太差劲了。 对吧?? :(
slpless night. nightmares all making me missing my night of peaceful slp alot. hugging the mickey even tighter these few nights. when 'll these monsters stop haunting me? at least waking up twice a night. :( i'd hav a better slp on next thurs i tink.
sometimes i jus nid an encouraging smile to tell me i'm doing v fine. sometimes i jus nid a pat on the head. sometimes i jus nid a comforting hug. sometimes sometimes. when all above cant be there.. i jus nid nth more den silence. pure silence to turn my isolation mode on. or jus to leave me alone.
i'm vulnerable in some sense. i'm nt tt strong to time and time agn pick myself up from things. expecially when all's a repeating cycle. how many times more do i have the courage. it arent easy to accept a challenge. but a part of me was stubborn to not cry over all this. even thou' i had the urge badly to jus..
dont comment. dont ask.
abt why i'm feeling tt way.
sth a lil' lighter mood.
an uncle asked my bro is he the older one? hehe makes me feels younger by 5yrs!! cox my bro 14 this yr man. oh man i look freaking young or i tink cox his damn tall liao so.. yah i look small beside him. (x
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