anyhw. wadeva it is.
just ignore prev post.

the grey ones.
mayb mayb. i believed i shuldnt hav mind wad ppl tink so much??

sometimes i've put others way too much before me.
till mayb i've neglect the one tts impt to me.

anyhw. i wont wanna give up. on wad i alrdy decided.(which i rarely would hav done)
& trust and everything.

a sec ago. i was slightly (jus slightly) shaken. but NT NOW.
somehw there's this lil' faith in me growing. bit by bit. (:

不想放弃；一点也不想
*shake head*

if now giv up. mayb i'd pls another side of ppl. but i'd end up hurting him and myself. and also i'd hav noe how things would hav been different. i'd nt hav the smiles now. and neither will i gain bak the smiles i've lost or rather left behind in the past. and i'd hav jus end everything bt ending both too.

mayb i cant be the gal tt everyone lkes. bt i'd try.
meanwhile i dun wanna lose my true self. the one some might have love abt me.

&most of all. the precious ard me now.
and my smile. didnt wanna it fade off. (i swear)

sure enough this holi i had more smiles. compared to in sch.
but still nt the me then. with so many smiles.

things weighing on my mind. but i'm still blessed.
a v understanding someone. (x dearest friends tts there for me.
family who dote on me. in their ways. thou sometimes i dun unds. bt i'm still blessed. ^^

as time goes by. (yes time-wad i wana trust on now)
things will only get clearer. and obstacles and blah now would be the things i'd be thankful of later in the future? all i nid is a rain to bring the rainbow tts coming after tt to me. i'm waiting for the sunshine after the rain.

---end---
now shall jus tink of tml. really hope its fun.
and wb is sweet. i can jus bring ezlink cash ic &hp. tml all dumped into his bag. HAHAHA.

& no nid bring jacket. he'd bring.
the more things i bring the more i'd lost. hehhee. :p

tts why i said i'm blessed. (x here's one eg.