no mood for lunch.
maybe i'd buy bread later.

sometimes really dun unds why i wake up so early.
yup ytd talk to twin. she said shuld have 1 day naturally wake up.

yet this holi. i'm unable to do it. how nice.
bleahh.

hmm almost end of holi alrdy.
wasnt feeling any huh this holi end so fast thingie for me. becox to me its damn slow. and also it do not feels lke a holiday at all.

this holiday wad have i done?
sentosa with dearest to kick start the holi. ^^ (gt my cable ride)
the projs. :(
meet up once with dear ying. ^^ &richmond!

no more meetin with ppl liao leh.! pathetic.
compared to my last holiday.. every 2 days go out once or wad.

this holiday i've learnt.
to wipe tears tt rolled down silently.
to make friends with lonliness.
to keep more things to myself. (everyone v busy u noe. i've to be sensible!)
to stop spam emails tt much. to stop clicking hp for msg.

to have more time for myself. (ALOT MORE cox i dun meetup ppl)
which is why i tend to talk to myself more nowades den anyone else. yah i have tendancy to zi yan zi yu. even if i'm with friends. its jus this got even more when i'm alone. tsk tsk.

to accept wadeva tt might be given.
to get on with things as it is. (even thou i dun wan! wth)
to tell myself to smile to smile.

now i'm learning..
to not put my hopes too high.
to things might not be wad i had been naive enough to think it is.

to wadeva things or whoever. i'd learn to smile to say gdbye next time round! (:

maybe now wad i nid is overcome darkness. still am somehow scared of darkness. sucks. when alone i'd feel uneasy and v uncomfortable. -.-

now looking forward to meeting sarah next sat. ^^ chats finally!
but maybe not meetin dearest before tt liao. nvm. >.<