how many times hav i told myself..
not to get bothered??
not to be upset??
not to be sad??

its really time to let go..?
of sth i once thought its forever.

i'm losing faith in wads the so called forever.

i dont lke it. when dearest is blame. innocent him.
when obviously his the reason of my smiles now.
and not any of my frowns/sadness.

doubt anytime he'd be. (:

*deleted a whole chunk of emo-ness.

i'm sinking in a lil' boat called friendship. :'(
throw me sth and i'd gladly hold on to it in order to float in the stupid sea.

tears arent coming its way this time. mayb becox it arent bringing the past bak agn? or mayb i've cried too much till now no more to fall? i dono. i dun lke this feeling.

of drifting.. :(((