the day start as early as 5+ 6am. haha cox nowadaes i gt too used to turning on hp's msg tone before i slept. so last night i forgt today wasnt goin to be any other day. and morning my hp started playing song.
den its wb's msg!~ (: to remind me to eat medi and blahh.
so i replied him and he replied me with fullstop cox he duno i on my msg tone. but acty his msg came at a gd timing. becox i was struggling with a bad dream.
its the worst type of dream i had. the type i hate most.
to wake up in tears. uncontrollable tears. i didnt noe wad i dreamt of. after replying wb i went bak to slp in sobs. its a real bad dream. the 2nd time i dreamt and woke up in tears.
den at the bus stop waiting for my bus. there's this random uncle coming to talk to me. becox seeing i wore pop uniform. den he asked abt my pay. asked if i rmb him and asked me why i work. before i can reply why i work he said. cfm becox of bf right. spent lots of money goin out with him.
i look at tt uncle *shake head* errrr no. no bf.
his reaction is damn -.-! he said cant be. u dun look lke tt type with no bf. and keep probing me. when its lke i said no. and he dun believe. lke how shuld one look with bf and w.o bf. >.<
there's 2 event tt gt me upset. 1st was.
the phili gal. there was only 4 ppl in my dpt. and during one of the lunch shift there's only me and her outside the shopfloor. and i'm doin stock with her. running counters. mind u there 2 counters at both end. and i'm the one attending to cus. receieving stocks. and when cus talk to her she ignore and point to me.
there was once when i had 2 cus. so i ask her serve one which is bk cover. bt she pushed bak the cus to me agn. saying yvonne i dun unds wad his talkin. lke HELLO tt uncle speak eng. tmd i damn bu shuang alrdy and damn tired. and damn GRUMPY.
den.. 2nd its becox of..
becox of this bloody demanding lady. she was asking for 3M light. and i had to get the model she wanted and she said she wanted to take a look of it. so i had to get the light. and i couldnt find any males/ppl with strength. so i had to DO IT MYSELF.
how heavy is the light man. and her kids are standing beside my ladder. imagine i stand on the 4th step of the ladder. trying to hold the lamp kept saying xcuse me. and all i get was ignored. so i was trying to hold the light in another direction tts nt to my way. so end up. i twisted my hand.
and i had to pretend there's nth. and go down the ladder with the lamp in my hand. its nt tt heavy compared to some model. but i dont hav much strength + i'm having phobia with ladder somehw. why the hell do i not have the bloody strength to get tt bloody lamp. :'( felt damn useless. and helpless.
den tt lady was asking me ques and blah. den later she told me. u dont noe ur product i dont want u to serve me. get someone experienced. so tts it. i felt humilated. i felt hurt. i felt damn damn bloody useless.
so i gt yn to served and i cried alrdy. the 2 event is damn enough to strained me and somehw the morning bad dream was still hanging on me. so i cried and went toliet msged wb and sobbing. its lke an outburst.
and yn laughed at me. cox she said i shuld hav gotten used to the cus. shuld nt hav cried. crying i alrdy lost the battle. true bt i cant help it. den later she served the cus. i cried for quite long. later rhys saw my red face. bt he didnt asked much jus joking abt missing a gd show.
and he did his stock beside mine. silent comfort somehw.
and yay 5+ wb replied me. cox he fang gong le. but sighhh i shuldnt hav got him worried for me. but the 1st person i tot of was him. :( even thou i noe i wont get a reply any time sooner. bt lke the few msg we xchanged during my brk was wa all v long msges. (:
and well. rest of day was busy busy busy. i did the taking of stock myself. and arranging of 'em myself. damn independent. bt damn lonely feel. i hate this feel. :( really.
and after work. met the 2.
know a big big news. shuld hav been happy. bt somehw it turned out the wrong way.
bt i'd giv my blessing as always. takes time all i'd say.
bt when with 'em. i saw hp pop msg. i'd b smiling lke stupid ppl. grrrrrr. :X
sth to the question i was asked today was
there's no reverse in things. and i dun hav the ans. didnt lke giv myself false hope in things. and i dont lke to look back in things. :X
and i feel uneasy goin home alone at 11++++ i quicken my pace home.
and i shuldnt hav coffee&bread jus now. grr. now i feel so awake and part of me was afraid to go to bed. sighhh i hate it when i'm whining lke a small kid. but i couldnt help it. :((((((((((((((((
sigh wads tml gonna be lke. when wb say he might come down tml. i'm smiling but i didnt wanna outburst in front of him. and he'd hav a tired day himself. :( GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. i feels so kid. today when having few sms exchange with my dear ying i didnt tell her xact cox i didnt wan her worry in her camp nw.
and i dint let erica noe oso. cox i didnt wan affect her exam.
sigh its a loser feel. i shuldnt hav cried. i shuld hav hold on.
and feelin kiddish to whine. bt i'm stil whining.
my mickey waitin for me on bed. shuld i go hug it and slp?
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