after a long big cry.
i'm feeling much much much better.

seriously. thankgod there's bff. (:

i didnt wan to blog the whole thing up here. its a damn shitty day for me.
a long long story. and it makes me cry.

everything. running from this morning's lab. to afternoon jap.
i guess the dear ones noe.

seriously. i've nvr gt such attitude from a person before. do you tink i'm fooling ard. xpeciali lab lesson? wads wrong wif being the last grp to complete? at least we did everything. and tts nt causing ur marks. mind u. i dun play ard wif my own marks right.

tmd. i wasnt a pampered gal. if nt i would nt hav work to earn my own xpenses. bt its the attitude tt i've gt. perhaps becox the guys ard me. are all nice to me. they gav in to me. bt nah i dont nid it from the one whom gt me upset. its the attitude.

despite knowin the type of person he is. still i'm upset. becox i felt so useless. i tot i was improving. from fearing the bunsen burner to nw able to flame tubes wif jus 1 hand over the flame. bt still. today. i was made to felt useless. :(

and oso jap proj. making me mad. rushin lke some mad gal. sleeping at wee hours. end up we are gona hav 'em settle over msn later on. hw great.

once home. online. webcam wif bff-erica. i started breaking down. immediately. i tink i scared her to death. bt seriously. i felt lke i've seen the dear one. on the way home on the bus. when i was shutting my eyes the moment i'm tearing.

i'm nt being kuazhang. pls dun comment if u duno anithing. becox this wk have been shitty. the whole wk. projs and everything. seriously i admit. my lvl of tolerance is low. bt tts me.

u are nt me. u duno hw it feels.
and alot of things are running throu' my mind. recently.

& when sth trigger it off. it triggered everything else too. :X
& erica is right mayb. i'm a xiao hai zi in some of my behaviour.

bt. well. let me be. i nvr harm/ruin ur life right. grrr.

on the way home. i was secretly praying tt cindy kang is on the bus. so that i can jus lean on her and emo. and nt alone. jus quietly lean and sit tgt on the ride home. becox we alight from same stop even if i fall aslp, she'd wake me up. :(

becox. erica is at the other end of s'pore cant b met on bus. penguins diff poly. xcept 2 bt chances of seeing 'em in sch is so low. let alone on the bus. (:

& thanks
erica. wb. shian. biondi. sry i had made u all worry. (: i'm alright reali. at least nw i'm better.