i've been having cramps in the stomach.
& everything seems nt goin smoothly.

and suddenly i feels lke emo-ing.

if u get wad i mean.
if u understand my situation.

i'm tired of ppl asking me out. and i had to squeeze time out.
do you noe hw sad i was when i had to choose betwn so many things?

hw torn apart am i? and tt..
i'm working cox i wasnt' so well off unlke ppl.

ppl who ask me out. & yah. they'd get upset wif me.
bt i didn't mean to. nvr did. becox if i had a choice.

i'd rather nt work. so i could pls all my friends right?
bt i cant. & my work is to place a 1 mth booking for next schedule off day.

nt as wad some ppl tink. u ask me this day come out i mux come out.
i'm sorry soo terribly sry tt i couldn't make time for all.

BUT some things hav to be place in piority. i've alrdy long ago booked the dates for chalet to be off. & did anione noes hw impt this means to me nt? becox chalet i can finally hav some proper catch up wif sec sch mates. the dear ones.

& most of u did nt gav me 1 mth notice. & alwaes when i could make time for u all.
last min there's some changes. i'm nt making myself as if i'm such a nice gal.

i'm a lousy friend if u must say yah. becox i nid to work.
i nid no sympathy. i work with both my hands. nt born wif gold spoon and i'm sorry for tt yah.

but can u all jus tink of my situation?
or at least. giv me a 1 mth notice b4 anithing nt??

so wadeva. i'm nt leding a life tt a 17 yr old gal shuld led.
bt i dun mind it. life 'd b more pleasent perhaps if..

haiish. so helpless i feels.
bt so wad. some ppl were still angry wif me. bt well. wad can i do?

all i could say was i'm sry.
bt tink abt ur own actions too.

no one is perfect so am i. i'm nt perfect at all.
if i had a choice.

i'd rather be a happier girl den now.
& nt a gal having to juggle btwn studies & money matter.