每个人都会有属于他的天使`

2009-07-24T01:49:00.000+08:00

shift.
http://yvonne21.livejournal.com/

(: *relink if u want!

2009-07-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

moving to new blog.
i'd update link soon. (:

2009-07-21T01:12:00.002+08:00

i'm slping soon.
alwaes slping at such weird hrs. no gd.

kept telling myself. next wk would be better.
after the 2 proj submissions. bt there's alwes prob popping out one after another. lke nvr ending one lo. sometimes really got v tired tt i'm tinking ~~wads all this for?~~ i noe for my own good. for better grades. bt tiring. :(

done nls tut and fi tut. (bt both gt 1 ques blank) -.-
yawning as i type the entry. but i wont online tml.

its intensive mugging at night for fi quiz. :(

initially today was slightly upset with dearest today. for a good cause i noe. and then. hehe. magic's msg!!~ (its my ying newest term for now sehhh) cox seriously recently whenever i'm upset her msg came in!~ lke MAGIC! but damn damn glad everything's good now!`

hope tml nls proj went fine. *pray hard hard hard* and yvonne mux rmb bring laptop tml for socio. -.-

2009-07-20T01:02:00.004+08:00

i'm a happy gal today. (:
becox work been quite ok.

in fact sense of accomplishment came upon the returns done. with help of sk and yq. ^^ and having a v funny and kind customer today. as in the way she talk its realli hilarious. to tink she said shes a lecturer.

but sth kinda angry was. a customer used a pencil to poke me!!! *insert furious.

bt i lke lunch & dinner today. but really tink no nid for everyone to behave in tt way. bt yet contradicting enough i lke how the lunch & dinner was. peaceful jus us. (x

& i'm kinds happy with hw i manage to buy exact 10bucks of stuff for twin. xact means no more no less. !!! ~ hehe. and nth for myself. tsk.

i really lke how anithing spam ying msn offline. and she'd send me a v v comforting msg. she unds alot alot. and yes i'm blessed in a way. truly really smile when i saw tt msg. :D i'm nt observant really but i'd try from nw. hehe.

i nvr finish nls. becox i reali duno mindmap!
shuld reali hav bought to work today and gt dearest to teach me mindmap man.

time for bed. 110am. *yawn finally one day earlier den usual.

i lke the sense of security.
as if even if the sky fall i'm nt alone; i've someone to lean on. (:

2009-07-18T23:08:00.004+08:00

today-
sense of satisfaction at work was when the whole pile of messy things i'd spent 2good hrs to make 'em neater. sometimes lil' things make me proud of myself.

tml gona be long day becox.
i've returns to do and also kinda big shifting to do. its tiring tml.

i've gummy baby bear sweet. yummy. :D
today. i aimed to do sth. hope by 3am slp.

~~i'm just nt observant enough. lousy lousy. :(~~
~~bad to max me. *helpless.~~

munching honeystars at 1am is so cool. adding milk in add in to fab feel. shiok. bt i noe ~~supper are fattening~~ breakfast is good for one. hehe. i lke honeystar nt cause its taste bt pretty much cox its yellow and in wonderful stars shape.

milk at fridge running low. shall replenish 'em soon. xD

sometimes my mind still will just run wild. how i appear to others acty kinda reflect wad they see. but i'm ~~not going~~ trying to just ignore wadeva they were saying. i'd just be myself. they are plain jealous?

*after sorting
in every form of rs, there's always a give and a take in.
yvonne wanna give more to eveyone she love den take in. if i can. (:

2009-07-18T01:54:00.003+08:00

yay. before 3am i'm done.
but right now; down with slight flu. :(

time for bed.
effects of lack of slp and vitamins!

***

一切的一切。。
我好想说，却不能。

tsk.one day everything 'll b fine.
dead tired for now. everything kinda hectic.

unscrew the life is hard. by wad ying said today.
my life for now arent screwed. its jus tangled. in a way.

complicated the word.
slowly she'd unscrew her life.
& me untangled mine.

tgt. the word. (:

2009-07-17T23:46:00.002+08:00

i'd blogged quickly & off to do sth else.
aim to slp before 3am. -.-

theres so much to do.
i'm feelin much relieved after nls quiz today. ytd was damn stressed over it yet i'm in a damn damn slpy mode. tt i jus slp before its 2am and panicked in the morning. apfs in the morning at 8am. but we acty no nid to meet so early. yet. i lke my apfa group somehow. kinda so far haven feel v stress over it. hehe.

den its fpqa lec no more. kinda quite a few breaks inbtwn today. and fpqa lecture ended kinda early. met laine and sarah and slackked at bedok kfc. den we wanted to get clothes of xact same design bt diff color. bt in the end we 3 all nvr buy. i find the shirt abit weird on me. :p

den its bus-ed to ecp. and i've slept all the way. and twin knock my head to wake me. -.- den we slackked at starbucks. stupid jh took a damn long time. and i called him. (despite my vv low batt pls) n this fellow scream over the phone for my cheesecake. xia si wo.

den its dearest msg. tsk i noe if its me. i'd be upset. bt kept telling him dont upset. (:

den jh finally came. and his mouth cmi to stop one leh. den later went to carl's jr with him. and kinda paiseh with him mixing sauces bt den agn. its nice. (x den crap. chat blah. and its nice to hav company lke every 2wks meeting?

and its time home. i had fun today. in some ways relieving.
but now feeling the pressure to chiong chiong chiong. b4 3am. :(

kinda looking forward to unscrew life tgt with dear yingying. :D
and hopefully tml bff. ying. dearest all smiling. tgt with the rest of ppl i love. :D

its second! :D

2009-07-16T18:45:00.005+08:00

i'm a selfish gal in some ways.
when i love someone i love u totally.

when u are hurt upset. i'm tgt feeling the pain.
in a diff way i wasnt the one being painful but just a helpless one.

yet. this post is just for my bff. yes you.
ERICE EWE AI RU. *dun laughhhhhhh*

we may have diff view towards some things. sometimes i noe pissing each other off. (me with my no tone msges when i'm upset.) but today. i realised.

原来你也不坚强; 原来你也会受伤
只是你不流泪。。
and there there. no more of saying my msg no tone. u noe hw bad it'd hav felt to be lke so upset with sth/someone.

i wish u'd just have a big cry. bt nah u are nt me. u dun cry tt easily. (althou' hehe i dun cry over bettles u noe.) but i noe the pain. i reali unds. althou' i nvr xperience it before.

just wanna say. i believe
有一天我们会一起幸福，快乐。
和最终的那个他一起手牵手。

the picture u painted. one day it'd be realised.
i'm positive. (: tink in a way. you deserve someone better. :D

lastly thankful for u are the one whom i shared with.
& to think u still joking with me over the msn.

heh. yvonne dun nid kiss seh. (u shuld noe why.) ^o^
she prefer hugs pls. :D tight hugs.

ewwww. i realised i'm a sweet to max gal leh.
quick spam love me at my tagboard. --->

ok dun joke le.
promise tml u'd be fine. be better. :D

2009-07-15T23:29:00.003+08:00

yvonne is a happy gal today. (:
NLS meal planning done. :D

kudos for tt. now left the report writing.
next wk coming. i'm really excited to hand in the projs.

despite yah apfs i havent gt the chance to touch it. -.-
no time no time. but glad the grp mates for tt so far are nice to be with. :D

ate a hell loads today. western meal. crabmeat deep fried stuff. banana oreo smoothie. (v nice) and 500ml of milk. sotong balls and nuggets. ^o^ sometimes i'm amazed by how much i can eat oso. hehe. :p

i love today becox of sth else. shhhh.
the 1st & the last. make tt happen.Y

one day i'd tink back to now and i'm certain i'd be smiling still.
it'd turn to be fond memories. :D

claps for NLS equiz done! 11/15 :D

2009-07-15T00:31:00.001+08:00

the gal is happy from doing finish csas ppt!
and also drawing. random cartoon drawing.

tsk hehe.
off to bed soon.

to do:
nls e quiz!
nls tut tml. -.-

2009-07-14T19:18:00.002+08:00

ytd-
my mood was a bad ttm day. seriously lke any moment i'd hav jus break down. however, i find the new cp amazing in some ways. shall share with dearest abt how amazing this guy was. shared with mum ytd and she seem amazed too. laine duno wad i talkin abt. (tink shes' v engross in her proj) (x

however the mood gradually did got better at night. (:

and today-
early morning i'm sweetened. HAHA by sms. :D and the day went alright? except yahh apfa quiz gg for me liao. but cant xpect much consider i nvr managed to finished my slides ytd? tsk. i had a nap for 1hr+. hehe v thankful for the nap.

and end of mth seem to be nearing. hopefully i'd have more time.
more time to rest. more time to spent on the ppl ard me. somehow yvonne dun wanna be ying's virtual friend wor. i wanna meet up with her soon. damn hope the harry potter plan is on. now the prob seem lke my schedule? tskk.

and best time off all the damn proj.
suffocating. yet anticipating the end of all this. -.-

i shall arrange the mickey and her monkeys on twin bed nicely. cox shes not home to slp today. -.- haha i noe she alwaes slp v late after i slpt. bt when i wake up i'd hav saw her mahh. tsk. i wanna stayover oso!! seeem fun to me. hehe.

一切想得太简单吗？
很多时候。。事情根本一点也不顺

却还要强装微笑。嘻嘻哈哈。
可悲但却也是自我保护的一种吗？

不知道。闷。

2009-07-13T00:39:00.002+08:00

eww eww.
i'm a v happy gal today.

ate alot. ALOT. >.<
i had cheese omelette and fish and chips rice.
i had 3/4 of mac cheesecake and some of mac cinnamon melt.

*growing fat if continue this eating everyday.
but fat tgt!!!~ :D

but i'm a happy gal cox of other reasons.
i'm blessed and i laughed alot today. (x

Y (:
bt the happy gal is tired now.
my blog no life de hor. so short entries.

tml i wont online.

2009-07-12T03:00:00.002+08:00

Finally done with FI report at 3am. -.-
totally tired to max.

off to bed tml there's work.
ps; appendix nt done yet. raw date. wthhh. :(

~~today~~ ytd i was giddy the whole day at work. trust me it arent fun climbing ladder when u felt lke u were going to fall off any time. scary to max. and i cut myself. its 血光之灾 day. -.-"'

time for bed man. feeling v awake thx to nescafe huhhh.

2009-07-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

weee!`
yvonne is a happy gal for the night! :D

1st thing 1st. after i left earlier from fpqa proj, waited for bus 69 which dearest was in. was chatting with aiting and realised shes really cute. (x den oh mine bus 69 so packed. i was standing all the way. -.-

den we finally met up with hui and wk. (felt so bad i was the one who kept they 3 waiting.) -.- den hehe off to cut hair!! thankfully the 3 of them noe the way. as usual i jus followed 'em. hehe the 2 guys were waiting for us outside. and hui had her cut 1st. the stylist was telling us how we shuld rebond our hair. hehe any1 wan sponser?? :D

den well i had my hair v v thinned now. (so much so tt person say any thinner 'd be no much hair left to tie) and i had layered. and a slant fringe. (i lke!) at 1st i tot it'd be weird bt its quite ok? and we paid 14bucks. tsk shuld tell the person we were sec sch ppl. tink 'd be cheaper?

and yay the four of us headed for ikea after hui chose the place. back to bedok back to whr we 1st started to wait for ikea bus. its v fun with 'em kept laughing. :D and me&hui both sent a sms to tweet.sg. on the bus i tried the liquor choc dearest gav me. (x

den the 2 guys bought food for us. :D alot alot food. pasta. meatballs. chicken wings. dearest tried a meatball and haha he dun lke beef taste. bt i was acty full alrdy bt was "forced" by wk to had another chicken wing. and dearest said i nid to be forced to eat de. cox i is can still eat one. kinda true. -.-

and we had ice cream!! only the adult (dearest) had his hotdog bun. haha and went to walked ard ikea. lke one of the room design there. (x and hmm dearest was playing with some measuring tape and was playing with measuring my head. cute dao. and was twisting with the tape.

den after some walking its time to go off to catch the bus bak to bedok. and home sweet home.

yay did i mention i gt another carebear!~ dearest buy for me! :D its w.o keychain but stil grumpy bear. :D and was showing off to hui and wk our mickey and my minnie and carebear. i tink i bring toys to sch. HAHA. :D

the best thing tt happen was the night. :D
*1 week. (:

2009-07-09T22:05:00.003+08:00

i'm v v tired.
despite a 40min nap? 910-abt 10pm. -.-

i usually dont take nap at such weird lke night timing. but this just shows tt i'm tired ttm. having a headache. splitting one. :( ever since the fpqa lab earlier on. my headache is there. seriously is it the room? or is it jus my headache came at tt hr. sighhh.

was thankful with michelle for lending her labcoat today. ^^ i didnt check the studyguide and thus still white labcoat was bought. and also. well kinda happy tt rest of us whom wasnt informed by friends or check the studyguide did gt our labcoats borrowed. (:

well. dead tired. but well i guess i shuld have be happy? saw cindy kang today on bus 69. i didnt realised shes sitting down till i was in daze and saw someone kept peeping at me. (u noe. ppl peep u'd hav the feel one?) hehe den waa her. i walked over and sit down. bt wasnt talkin. once reached inter. the both of us were playing alrdy.

deciding btwn bus 7 or 30. becox we were analysing btwn which bus acty would come first. and somehow she took my suggestion of.. ( i tink my stupidness come from her!) standing inbtwn bus 7 and 30 deciding to run for which tt come 1st. -.- ended up kept tugging here and there on bus 7. i was saying today i shall be the one slping!

and who noes tt gal bad she sat towards the window. (i lke sitting the inside one) and she started slping. totally dun care me. den i dun care i slp on her. nua on her den this stupid pillow slp damn low end up i hug my bag and slp. and haha both almost missed the stop. until me woke up at the traffic light junction.

den she asked me if i had anithing much to do if not go for a walk at house area. i was lke of cox can (thou' i'm havin headache le..) den we saw her dad. and i was lke HELLO UNCLE. den she comment abt i'm best with those adult age ppl cox my mouth v sweet.

hehe. den her dad went ntuc with us and the 2 of us were playing ard. even with the dad there she insisted i sent her to her block. -.- make me kena scared by cat and scared her and her dad. paisehh.

den home. dinner. OH YAH the 500ml milk i drank today got me really bloated. -.-

tml is hair cutting time! with hui + wk and dearest coming along. den dinner tgt. fun night anticipated righttt! :D *hopefully tml i can jus go snap some hair off* no time delaying.

everyday pray be lke ytd and today after sch.
so i'd be ending the day truthfully with a smile! :D

*its always how the true dear ones tt got me smiling. :D

2009-07-08T22:30:00.003+08:00

the whole day wasnt packed bt yet somehw invisible layer of stress was there. somehow i'd alwaes nid time to get use to one thing. tts how bad i can be. but i'm alrite. i alwaes tink i'm fine when it comes to some matters at the v least i dun flare up? -.-

but end of the day, i'm a happier gal. (: love how the end of day end with. but i lost my carebear on the bus. :( but nvm heng the carebear was wad i buy for myself. so i hang it on my bag. but hehe next carebear shall slp in bag tgt with mickey and minnie. hehe tt means i wont be buying it myself. thx to dearest. ^^ Y

*i'm waiting to watch finish the video.
i'm dead tired. xhuasted. >.<

but i'm a happier smiling gal today den prev day! (x

i'm waitin for everything to end. *pray no hiccups along the way. and looking forward to harry potter. (hopefully i wont missed it this time round lke the prev h.p movie) and i'm lookin forward to planning sth. hehe hope it goes well? den it'd jus be my 2nd time planning? loads of prep to do thou.

shhh till then. secret; (:

2009-07-07T22:44:00.003+08:00

its bad if my emotions goes from v down to bottom.
to happier gal at night. thx to the love ones.

sth slightly happier.
i'm booked for harry potter by dearest.
& i book.. ying & richmond!!!!

*pray hard tt day nth on.

2009-07-07T17:44:00.003+08:00

i'm really lost. :(

everything seem so packed up. i feel really lost. the mind damn frustrated. i duno how to describe this feel. but i feel so damn weak. cry when i've hit my limit. or almost i'm reaching. i'm really really lost. tell me. tell me. am i wrong.

the whole mind in a whirl. terrible state.
i dont lke the me whose tears threaten to fall/had alrdy fallen. the me who wears no smile. seriously morning when i was msgin i was smiling. but once.. everything came fallin down. so much so i noe i'm being v whiny.

i dun lke the me whose laughing bt deep down i'm nt happy. (yes i noe hw humans cant alwaes be happy bt..) i really hate it to how when stress came in. my body auto show signals. (wad the whole holi i've been tuning bak to normal cycle. now becomes haywire agn) damn.

the ride home. i reali dun lke it. acty wanted to once agn walk ard bedok area alone. (bedok boring to me alrdy cox i'd onli go all the way towards ntuc any further i'd be lost) but becox the sky threatened to rain.

i wanted to walk a bus stop ride home oso. just some walkin do me good. bt agn the sky. :( the bus ride home i was sorting thoughts with voices in my head. (nt the one dearest tot) its jus when i run thought there'd be voices.

home i napped. cox dearest asked me to. and yes i did feel better after tt. and nw online saw ying xtra double better. the 2 are miracle pills. ^^ yet i dread the arrival of tml. :(

stronger stronger pls. everything gonna end soon i hope. :(
yvonne dun lke the whiny yvonne now. >.<

2009-07-06T23:53:00.001+08:00

累了；睡一觉起来。。
会不会比较好？？ :(

i dont lke to slp crying. neither do i lke slp moody.
damnnnnnnn. >.<

tml. 8am lesson. wow. -.-

2009-07-06T19:29:00.006+08:00

i dont lke the me now.
i'd blog later in the night bah.

tts wad i wanna post for now.
i hate those tears threatening to fall any moment.

mood- down.

editted;/
its now after dinner. well i'm better. the day didnt went well. or rather i feel so?? i noe how stressed up everyone have been but well i hate to admit bt i'm damn stressed. its as if i dun hav any free time for myself or anyone else. (other den schmates). sigh.

so much so i really feel i'm losing my life. i wanted control of my own timing. but it seem so hard arent it? :( today the mini presentation went well. i'm glad. but towards end of day i'm damn crushed. :(

but well so much so end of day i acty i guess sent a v sad msg to dearest. >.<

saw cindy kang on bus 69!! at bedok inter. once we alight she wanted buy some colorful biscuits bt tink its embarrassing. thus the kind me hold her (acty is drag) hands to the shop and make her buy. & shared with her my cookies. ^^

on bus 7 i wanted slp on her and lean. who noes shes faster den me. she jus lean on me and SLEEP. -.- wo ren hen hao lo. i let her slp nvr disturb her. (acty cox i wasnt in the mood to talk so jus let her lean and i lean on her oso)

and bus home. later i sent her home. (as alwaes cox we crap abit on the way home. even pei her buy her bread)

thankful for times lke this when i noe i nid peace. yet contradicting tt.. i'd be greatful of peace with someone by my side. (x

ps;
i'm a whiny gal i dun lkeeee. :(

*desperately need a haircut!!!! lke really.

2009-07-06T00:52:00.002+08:00

i'm havin damn splitting headache.
after effect of tears huh?? :x

dearest say dun haha in my msg when i not in haha mood.
seriously i'm better alrdy. (x

yvonne wans to bring smile tml. dun wan tears.
yvonne wound still hurt alot. (it bleed agn today lke with plaster on oso?)

yvonne oh yvonne. seriously typing myself yvonne this and tt..
ewww mummy jus say sth v wa de. she say i sec 4 tt time wt nvr go down. its only when i enter poly. my face look fat now pls. and i gt a -.- look. twin say my face fat lke pig. thx ahhh.

bt mum comment my pimples more and more.
tts effects of STRESS. pros & cons ahhh.

crap. mickey waiting for me hug it slp.
and yes i nid slp. alot to do man.

the one who make me smile are the one i love.
the one who make me tear are the one i dun lke. >.<

2009-07-05T23:10:00.002+08:00

i'm a cranky gal today. (DONT ASK ME WAD HAPPEN)
nopes it wasnt becox of work.

work pretty alrite nwadaes. its sigh. i duno wad to say. whr to start. blogging wasnt a v safe place to say all this man. :( but it really sucks to cry before having my dinner. i guess ivy and rhys kena shocked by me. whereas dearest gave me tissue and i cried for awhile. and it really truly sucks tt emotionally exhuasted feeling.

bt tts wad happen when i reached my limit. the more u ask me dun cry the more my tap start running. its lke asking a kid who fall down if he/she is alrite. and he/she will start crying. bt after tt we went ntuc.

if one day i'm fat ahhh. *point to dearest* culprit!! HAHAHA.
i'm well v drained out for the day. i noe i'm weak. but i did say before. i wont make promise of i would cry lesser. cox one i break down seriously tts it. gg i jus cry.

leave me alone to cool myself lke today. after dinner i did packing seriously tt timing.. i cooled down alrdy i sort my thoughts. clearly i dun tink i'm wrong. i'm one if i'm wrong i'd admit. nt when i'm nt. i had my temper too.

damn damn thankful today for bff. and dearest. whine alot to 'em. seriously i duno hw i'd be emo-ing at some corner if i were to be left really alone. (:

ps; get facts right of i'm earning own allowance and sch fee trying hard dun depend on parents. i'm seriously v affected by this. wo de dong shi.. bian cheng bie ren de bu ren zhen?

i dun wish to go to bed and wait for arrival of tml.

2009-07-05T01:49:00.002+08:00

super happy with myself right now.
sth is done. :D:D

motivation do comes at weird timing. i sacrifice my slp.. HAHAHA.
almost 2am. time for bed.

super satisfied my green highlighter. finally i rmb to refill it. now its WOW SUPER GREEN. super nice. :D

time for bed. tml day shall begin with a SMILE! xD
randomness. but i drank a cup of milk and a bottle yakult. at weird timing too.

i dun lke fluid bt i lke fluid with flavour. (x

2009-07-04T23:12:00.002+08:00

i'm tired. but yet.
the tired level arent as much as mon-fri.

the morning started with alot of ppl crazy abt the cheap mp3. haha. and i was busy with arranging of stocks and reshelving of stocks. also with the cleaning of place. seriously dun lke cleaning cox it makes my hands v dry. (nono dun apply cream at work).

but well. today things went on all alright. just i'm really tired bah. i had this i'm dead beat look? sk kept telling me i look tired. haha was suppose to help her install songs into her newly bought mp3. but night time, i passed 'em to dearest liao. cox i duno hw with the memory card thingie. -.-

and sk told him i look tired or wad. guess i really look tired. >.<
den home time still happiest of the day. (x

i'm learning to find difference slowly. (x
boo boo.

2009-07-04T00:32:00.002+08:00

o3o7o9` suppose start as happy day.
but hmm didnt go as wad i tot.

projs crushing me. :'(
so many to do.. so lil' time.

mon there's presentation. thou' damn mini one. :(
but still i've had phobia to talk to crowd. even if own class.

bt night time best. lovely company. laine+ sarah.
dear here dear there.. HAHA I XTRA SEHHH! but ate alot. sakae sushi. hahah so damn nice. we shared 2don and 9coloured plates. HAHAH and last min.. strawberry smiles. froze my teeth.

went tamp cotton on. den went tamp1 for frolick! DAMN NICE PLS.
but the service there sucks. *good luck twin post a feedbak* -.-

den went cold storage with the 2. AHHA and laine buy fruit loop. and initially wanted catch a movie bt nvr. withdraw $ and cab home. its v v fun with 'em!!! (x

ME SO WAN HAV A HAIRCUT.
messy to max ugly to max max me. -.-

time for bed soon. yawning making me so tired.
tml a long day. but its wkend. happy for a reason! (:

hmm.
adapting. learning. finding. >.<

2009-07-02T22:13:00.005+08:00

我累了；可以休息吗？？ :(
学着适应。。这样的步法。。

好难好难。。今天在巴士上；
眼泪在眼眶-好无助
累了好累-闭上眼，想逃避

逃离这一切..

i'm learning to adjust to all this.

kids are loveable. the baby boy's hug got me smiling.
why can kiddo be so innocent. & not us.

dinner was enjoyable. with daddy. mummy. laine. doesnt seem lke daddy's bdae celebration thou' seems lke normal daily dinner tgt xcept got mummy dun hav bro. but i lke eating tgt. and twin having her fun with me. ^^

eddited;/
thx ying. thx erica. thx dearest!! :D

-the start of a new journey (:
o3o7o9` today a brand new day.

2009-07-02T00:46:00.004+08:00

hmmph. nowades i always is blog before i slp.
today the day start with..

dearest msg wake me up at 7!
FI gosh. so much things to take note of. the hands lke nvr stop lke tt. den its socio lec. den its break and we do our nls. den its makan-ing. den bak to nls-ing. den apfs lec.

stupid me. i forgt bring nls lec notes. but after tt was nls proj consultation. its really useful xpeciali for our report writing part. but alot nid to be redo. -.- jiayou jiayou!! (x den we went bak com lab to do nls. A4 gals alot crowd ard us. and we gossip. soo fun!!

den its home time. MY BAG ZIP CAME OFF. -.- den cant fixed bak have to go home with a bag tt cant zip. tskk. bt haha me msg dearest ask him zip off hw go home. den he called me and we ended up chatting.. alot of things.

from the moment i on bus 69 to the moment i home and awhile later we hanged up. tts v long time phone chatting! (: i lke to chat lke tt. yay i dun mind phone calls at all but mus see whose tt on the line! but dearest hp bill sure bao! :p bought a pack of fisherman cheery sweet! *minty*

had dinner my fav garlic fried rice. (x
chatted with dearest. &ying. completed csas3 bt fpqa i cant find.

time for bed.
fun fun things!! facial! (x

ps; 1+am alrdy.
happy bdae daddy!! Y :D

2009-07-01T00:58:00.003+08:00

OFF TO BED.
despite csas3 not done finish.

cont'd tml. i'd dead beat if i still dun slp..
cfm i'd ~~die~~ 3/4 dead de lo. :(

today's almost overslp on sofa. after i woke up. tml wont happen agn. haha cox sweet sweet dearest waking me up! den he slp bak agn. (:

i'm so xhuasted tt i didnt chat tt much with dear ying ying. :(
hopefully its jus the throat pain and nth else. & soon soon enough slp and i'd have..

my memory bak. its reali stm now de. :(:(
*grumpy whining*

2009-06-30T22:43:00.003+08:00

the day is tiring shag to max.
i'm having a sorethroat. *pray wont infect to fever*

nls lec is interesting. bt when the premature babies were 1st shown. omg my heart pain. damn damn kelian the babies. :(

clique 6 had kenny as lunch today. (x
den its bak to com lab to do nls.

and apfs lec and tut. boring to max pls.

den socio. omg mr kelvin fierce sehh. he flare up. me so awake after tt. was happily putting my both hands into the pockets of my jacket. damn warm lke hugging softtoy. so much so.. tt i was drifting into my lala land. gosh.

den its doing nls proj all the way till 8+. had some share of laughters bt oso was kinda unhappy abt sth. (nth to do with my grp) bt grrr. and we returned food compo to aiting. den i cabbed home.

too much to be done. (bloggin is interval) and also its kinda over my comfort zone of timing to be out of sch. (yes i hav my comfort zoning thingie de). if everytime end so late, me sure broke to max liao le.

since the prev cab driver xperience. on the cab jus now was kinda jumpy bt hehe when dearest ask if i'm home i was giving direction to driver and when i gav right direction. OMG damn happy de can. sense of achievement lke tt. seriously my direction sense poor to max lo.

den he say i lke playing de. bt waa proud proud me. had ABC soup today. jus soup no rice. haha i'm asked to eat more! haven been taking much CHO eh me. -.-

ok bak to csas3. (x

yvonne loves warm hugs from ppl she loves. yet i realised after today i oso dun lke hugs from ppl whom i once love. its a v. distant feel. a invisible one i cant reached for. the feel makes me feel so far reached away from you. :( i'd nt do anithing bt only smile to ease the awkward atmosphere. i dont ever wan this feeling anymore. no more pls.

2009-06-29T23:52:00.003+08:00

xhuasted to max.
*yawn*

acty i'm too xhuasted to blog today alrdy.
the day is long. so is tml. *too many thingssssss.

but hopefully thurs can home after fpqa. becox its daddy's bdae! hopefully tt day we do not nid to stay back for any proj. :(

can feel my body cant take it anymore slowly.
xhuastion. and fatigue. the bones feels v suan suan.

roar. pray its not me going to be sick soon.
now is not the time to be sick.

whine whine.
soon soon i noe i'd breakdown de. :((((((((((

i nid to hav my slp soon.
nid its a must! :(

有时真的不知道。。这么累是为了什么？？
我~~好累好累~~厌倦 :'(

2009-06-29T00:59:00.005+08:00

hoho! the 300th post. (x
blogged before slp. before printin.

morning. started my day smiling. haha dearest damn cute de msg me gdmornin den he slp bak. my alarm! :D and mornin was msgin with erica. i wan zdl songs!

today at work xhuasted to max.
work is tired to max. max max.

to the xtent of i broke my own record. serve a cus for 2hrs. yes 2hrs. -.- tyvm they spent 400+ nia. -.- and i'm damn in need of toliet and ren 1hr+. one day i'd really charm. how tired am i? drank 2 coffee today. (i dun usually drink coffee on wkend wads more 2).

i wasnt unhappy today. bt jus tired to max.
halfway tink 8+ or wad go drink water (lke finally) and my lips cracked. too dry. and msg dearest i dying alrdy shag to max. (whole day haven been restin runnin ard the place.) workin is so tiring. tsk and v hectic.

both lunch and dinner i've urge to jus skip and slp bt nvr. dinner nvr ate much bought a set for mac bt ate onli burger and drank my latte. fries untouched. super no mood eat despite yah my energy sort of used up alrdy.

den home time i reali is can doze off on bus. in fact i doze abit. jus giv me anithing to lean on i sure slp. fridge wall bus. bleahhh. slpy to max then. bt on bus i msg cindy kang. grr bt home finished off logbk. and was chattin with dearest and ying!

i wasnt unhappy today jus damn xhuasted. bt sth :D was cindykang called me at 11+ sayin me why msg her so lateee. when her bdae almost over. bt she said the way i msg is weird de (cox her hp drop in swimmin pool) den she guess its me msg by my msg way.

guai guai de. cox of *HUGS* -.- thx ah gal ppl giv u hug u xian qi u gd! tskkk. bt hoho another person 18! old old tgt!

the yes & no kept repeating inside the brain.
as if they were at loggerheads. >.<

seriously my memory failing me. my stm more and more serious.
somehow if one day i forgt things how. as in the happy ones. cox i cant rmb alot things even if they happen jus one day ago!!! wads with the brain. :( by then i'd nid ppl to remind me the happy ones. saddening sia. pls tell me its jux cox i'm v tiredd.

editted/
the silly gal (point to self) forgt cut her finger nails!!! damn.
tml food lab somemore. ok few hrs oink and cut nails. mus rmb!!

2009-06-28T00:35:00.002+08:00

today an alrite day. (:
start my day happily. becox damn lookin forward to night time.

but halfway i'm scolded by a customer. (not really scold bt fierce by her). and i sort of ap back oso. wasnt in a gd attitude. bt well. nvm. it doesnt affect much my happy mood.

fast forward to night time.!
HAHAHA! :p after work met dearest!! me damn happy can! haha but he slim alot pls. bad bad. he said tt my hokkien more and more. HAHA really mehh. and den we went mac. he said he tot he come bak i'd grow taller. cute sia of cox i nvr. fatter jiu you not taller. tskkkkk!

den at mac we talk alot. (x he gave me the things he bought for me. :D and he buy me handcream just now. cox i've been sayin hands dry and he came bak read my blog. HAHA damn sweeeeeet pls. :D

hearing wad happen at shanghai for him and me whining. haha. but seriously i tink gd xposure to go oversea and really seem so interesting!! talk and talk to him. and open the things he gav me. (i'd try the teee tml!) i'm damn touched by him!!!! and oso heartpain. grrr. i've cute mickey and minnie. to stay in my bag!! HAHAHA.

i alwaes lke toys in bag i duno why. and they damn cute. dearest oso cute he put 3 of 'em (one mickey is his) in his office when he work tt time. imagine they 3 sat there. HAHA super cute de lo. and later time to go home.

now almost 3am. we are still online. :D
i'm almost tempted to nod my head. i swear i was.

theres so much i wanna blog bt the brain kinda dead at this timing.
but yvonne a happy gal today and ytd. :D:D:D his lke magic hurrrrrrr. bleahh. :p

tml work still. time for bed.
dead tired/

2009-06-27T00:44:00.004+08:00

today a happy day! :D

hmm the day goes with me rmbering nutri is full of cute babies!! omg i'm seriously loving babies even more from all the youtubes video shown in lectures.! damn cute to maxxxxx!! but now ppl ard me no one have babies!! me wan play with babies. hehe.!! i tink next time i'd treat my baby lke soft toy keep hug 'em. damn cuteeeeee!

and got bak nls proj. v happy with the results! :D cheers for me. yf. cy!
more to come now this nls proj is crashing me man. lke so much to do! & so complicated. grr.

den its to com lab. and to cyber center. kinda mad tt my pw been changed for i duno wad reason. and damn tired thx to stupid me forgt cyber center nid matrix card to enter. -.- den reset pw jiu ok le.

den its doing nls proj till abit over 8pm. *faint* 1st time stay till so late in sch to do proj. predict more to come thou'. end up sarah waited for me. & we cabbed to tamp. met laine had cafe cartel. its alwaes damn funny & lovely to chat with them. walau eh!! they 2 damn fierce!! hahaha.

i love this type of catching ups! :D with me every few mins telling 'em i wan blueberry cheescake! (tts my purpose of cafe cartel wad) den we had some seafood combo thing with soup and drinks. and off to search for blueberry cheesecake. (end up not cafe cartel one!)

and from tamp to tamp1 and finally to century sqaure coffeebean jus for my blueberry cheesecake! hehe only blueberry cheesecake and the cheesecake my dear ying make for me before are my fav cheesecakes! :D den chatting at coffeebean.

den. dearest called the moment he land sg!! :D
chatted with him on the phone outside coffeebean for a long long while!! chat about alot of things.! had loads of laugh. ^^ 19days passed finally! hehe. i is can chat on phone de is just i wan or dun wan chat. HAHA.

and having laine inside coffeebean giving me funny faces! den its time to go home. coffeebean shutting down timing. took cab home. and wa laine &sarah amazed me.

& laine amazed me with the directions she gav cab driver. and how she'd acty strike convo with cab driver. mixed hokkien somemore. wa win le!! xD

all this lil' things make yvonne a happy gal today.
happyvonne!! so nice righttttttt! :D

tml there's work. dead tired now.
but hehe ytd i slpt at 2am. cox finally chat with dear ying!!!

2009-06-25T21:11:00.003+08:00

pondering if i shuld just delete friendster.
lol i dun log in tt anymore bt jus now log in for fun.

& saw a message from a stranger. -.-
yvonne gt annoyed by all the bu ren shi de ren.
xpecialli comment lke. can i be ur friend cuttie? puiii.*

bleahhh. random bt woots 24hrs++ later!!:D

editted/

just got msg. horrrr. dearest nid kena..
qurratine 3days from pop! -.-
now now wait till 20+ hrs later den see how bahh. tskkkk. idiot de.

song playing-
我爱你你爱我算不算是承诺 !~
from wilber pan's song 无重力 (x

2009-06-25T17:39:00.005+08:00

today went on fine. (:

csas3 omg. kills me pls. so many assignments and got upcoming test of it? and its lke a whole pile dump on us today. :( sad to max. den its makan time. den fpqa lab. eww i'm amazed with vacuum packing tt machine! lke sua gu lke tt.

but yah if i got into nutri i might not have a chance to see it agn u see. haha! &tsk i'm amazed with the things saw at the food packagin lab? or wad lab is tt? got bubble tea machine oso lehh!! den wad. have bread slicer oso. cool right!! :D

den its launching of package 2. 1st impression of the fpqa tutor wasnt gd. yf was lke u tink u choose bf meh. cox i said dui him no hao gan. haha bt after the lesson i find him alrite. so far so gd. *keep finger cross 1st* bt asss package 2 lke damn hard. *the stress came in agn.

afterwhich went to bookshop with levina. no food compo food sold there oso leh. :( but well had a chat with levina! saying abt how i cant really find the feel to study leh as in i'd have the i mus study thinking bt. gt a very sian feel when i do things. tsk. :( and she's havin the same feel too.

it wasnt no motivation bt i duno whr to start with. :(

i noe why i had cramp le! time of the mth. :(
luckily this time no much pms-ing!!!! at least till today! :D

but home took a half hr nap!! haha nvr reply mail liao.
i'm quite used to replying emails and checking email le! tskk.

tml the day! woots. all ?? in mails shall be reply throu' sms!! hehe. somehow tinking 19days passing quite slow but now tt its tml i tink the 19days passed quite ok wasnt fast bt now. time after tml pls.. slow down.

i nid more time to complete my work le!
tml gonna be a happy day no matter wad. even if the day sux or wad. *pray not!* my night gonna be great. gonna see darling sarah for dinner! &.. saying hello agn to dearest! waahaha. :D

o1 more day!~ Y
yesssss finally its tml! :D:D

ps; i miss talking to my dear ying le. :( stupid project yvonne dont lke u all!!!

2009-06-24T22:00:00.004+08:00

today.
morning wake up in shock. cox of dearest oversea msg. cox ytd night i slp liao le. den went to sent email before bathing using itouch. :(

whole day worried si. >.< its how irony the world gets. i failed so many yet the one i pass i did not bad. (xceed my own xpectations) if only the marks can split and i passed all.

grr. den clique 6 went out of sch and eat. today weather lovely. been long since sg acty rained and feels windy. so much so i wore jacket today quite a few times.

den went com lab. and den apfs. zz. den done nls some parts. fun today nls in some sense. cox yf and me would be lke saying wa we mus b considerate to fiona (our subject name) cox she preggy. but den ah WHY SHE MUS B LACTO VEGETARIAN cant eat eggs. and its really vegetarian missed out alot foods.

haha. stayed in sch till abit past 6. den home checked mails. at least felt abit less worried. pheww lke finally. before tt was :( den now :D haha cox v sweet to max mail. hehe. :p

den dinner was only me&daddy. and then home. replied mail. tml another long day. there's lab. -.- i all along tot no labs this wk! terror.

& v kuazhang i ate alot today!
bread- 7+am
wanton mee- 11+am (3bucks instead of usual 2.50)
strawberry milk tea- 11+am
chicken pie- ard 3pm
eee meee -7+pm

best? i ate finished all of it!

faint! if everyday eat so much. i'd not be cute pig le. its a big fat pig! bt hehe wait till next wk liao. fri i'm eating predict quite abit! :p

loves in the air! (x
o3more days!` Y

2009-06-23T20:18:00.002+08:00

today. hmm.
apfs tut boring to maxxxx.

den its mac brkfast! (:
den its to com lab for aircon!! showed chinying facebook and twitter. and msn-ed a v short while with dearest. and read mails den have to log off to lec.

apfs result. :(
but lke wad i've said. i've move on so today i felt better.

socio is alrite. sms with sarah durin class. :p i'm satisfied with the marks. watched singapore dreaming after socio. (our proj movie) at 1st boring. zz. den later awhile the story gt alrite.

its in dialect. hokkien. ahha i know how to listen this no nid subtitle. bt yawn yawn. haha was complainin to sarah. and ME WAN SWEET! hehe. den hmm

there's a sad part in the show. sth was why the husband after so many yrs nvr notice the wife do not have ear piercing? even gav her earring as present. if its me sure sad to max man!

den its home time. -.- bedok inter sth idiotic happen.
haha sarah said i'm a silly gal. i tink i'm a dumb gal! >.<

yawn home i bought chips more. damn hungry.
and i ate my biscuits. (half a pack jus on my own. win liao.)

den daddy was askin abt dinner wan to eat alrdy? i kept saying wo yao chi fan. and twin was laughing and said i mus be v hungry!. indeed i am. but chips more effect came damn slow.

only halfway throu' my fried rice den i felt damn full. zzz.
& my tummy feels really weird. bt nt as i tot the one thing a mth.

goin slp early tonite. v tired duno why.

sucks.
o4more days!~Y

2009-06-22T20:37:00.004+08:00

unintention words can just hurt yvonne.
by alot.

i'm nt a toy; i've my emotions. not as and when u wan cuddle me den u hug me tight. when u are bored u just throw me one side for me to play on my own. i mean really. i nid genuine hugs. or a pat.

wad i nid now is just leave me alone.

literally i meant really alone. (jus leave me on my own) throu' the holi i really think i'm better off alone nowadays. just a walk on my own at some part of a crowded streets with the ear piece plug in ear. just an isolation of my own.

i noe i used to be someone who nid company. yes i still nid 'em now. alot. just a hug over the sms could have thrill me or make me sweet to hell. (lke today the bad day yet sarah &ying msg did make me smile) but i duno wad change me.

i guess everyone had their two sides. the cheery one. & the emo one. so pls dun blame me. dun xpect me to say funny things and blah. i dun feel cute at all now. i feel really ugly. yet its damn tough to have ppl to unds this. failure. i make friends with u. but i swear u wont be my friend forever.!!

seriously its tiring to smile and pretend i'm alrite. i'm selfish. pls let me be for this time. willful wadeva. i'm jus to tired to fake a smile having the thing i dun lke most. (a plastered mask) on my face. yet dont worry i'd be fine de. i wont be lke this forever. (just nid time).

sorry. the expectations i cant reached.
sorry. i cant even met my own.

ediited;
i've spam 3mails today. opps.
half hr more. 1 lesser day.

tml. i wan wake up feeling better.
& i'll. >.<

sth i really detest. disappointment of others over my own.

2009-06-22T14:34:00.004+08:00

i ~~hate~~ dont lke the me now. *hate a harsh word
really really ~~hate~~ dun lke.

thx laine. sarah. ying. dearest. (:
*BIG HUGS* for 'em all.

its the i noe u tried ur best. dun blame urself. smile. blah tt makes me feel even more self blaming. history alwaes repeats itself. yet if i can climb up the prev time. so i can now. right. the world arent crashin me. nono not yet. am i right?? twin saying of few marks ok de. bt still hmm. i unds bt i'm caring alot too.

its alwaes easier said den done. even thou' told dearest after this wk i wont sad i'd jus move on. but i just noe how difficult its all gonna be to move on. there'd alwaes be this confident lacking. tts it yvonne. ~~cry~~ whine all u wan this wk. and next wk brand new wk. must be.

i'm evil! haha. :p tink he'd really faint by me one day. suggested lets dun eat tgt just now. and i'm all hands for tt. becox i really dun hav the mood to eat. food doesnt make yvonne a happier gal. at least for now its not. chocs oso arent workin its way this time. v down. the heart.

however. lighter note. i've been msgin sarah today! &meetin her on fri. (despite i tink i hav to rot in library 1st.) but nahh not complaining. fri a good day u noe. especially at nightttt! :D:D:D & sat vonne 'll try dun cry. (x

~~totally i wish i'm invisible. tts all folks.~~
time to move on.
bye. ps; all ~~------~~ is wad i've edit.

& cramping sucks. alot v v pain. damnit.
o5more days!~Y

2009-06-21T23:58:00.004+08:00

VON IS V ANGRY!
von is an angry gal.

von is a v bushuang to max gal!
von is tmd %^*&* swearing in her heart.

damn. i really hates to hw i discover things on my own.
wads best??

UNPLEASANT THINGS! damn it.
v angry. von is. ---> :@ *insert my msn fuming bear.

v angry to even type yvonne. bleah.
yet von/vonne only the close ones called me tt. (normally!) (:

i swear to do things next time on my own.
w.o warning/telling anyone. tts not my family. dear. darlings. dearest.

:( abit of betray feel why? when i dun even treat u as friend deeep down. i guess i was naive to even believe from the start. arent i?? damn.

ps; DONT ASK ME WAD IS IT.
&i'm alrite. perfectly. no time for morons. blog and slp!

o5more days!~Y

ediited/
von is smiling now. cause its..
MRS lee/mdm koh sihui's husband bdae. had some fun at fb commentin status. wads best?? i'm invited to their home one day! its alwaes the silly act of best friends tt got u smiling arent it?? (:

one day penguins. meet ups! nono even before anyone's bdae k!
its a must. cox i request it. AHHAHA *sweet of yvonne!

2009-06-21T22:53:00.003+08:00

what a day!
tml back to sch. :(((

fast forward the day. type everything brief.

the day went on alrite. funny to how rhys kept announcing how many more days. teasing. tsk. had rice for both meals lke finally? hahaha! got a praise and this makes yvonne v happy! hmm hmm. the knuckles bleed today. now i've gt a cute red wound. (cute cox its a small dot lke wound) bt tt instant it got injured..

i swear its damn damn pain. tt i feel lke mouthing wt* ok swear lesser me! of cox when there's things tt makes u happy there's sth upsetting oso. bt nvm. (: and bus home with vanessa today agn! hehe.

&hopefully the self quarratine things. apply to tp only??
if not next sat i wont be able to seeee dearest! :( *finger crossed*

now hope fri can meet sarah! after sch. but she end sch later den me!! haha. sarah oh sarah!! i wanna eat.. cafe cartel!!!! i wan my blueberry cheesecake!!!! hehe.

o6more days! Y
excitement cut half upon thinking self quarratine!!

连天使都会受伤。。
何况我只是我？？ *无力的笑*

ps; HAPPY daddys' day!
haha cox i call my father as daddy and funny as twin called him papa. while my bro see mood address daddy! so wad do u call ur father?? papa? daddy? dad?

my daddy. hmm a stern man.
yet from young he dun beat any of us (we 3) i grew up in a family of no beatings. (believe it or not!) bt a stare a glare or when daddy raise his voice.. i'd trembled. haha.

tts why i alwaes tink i'd be a kind mummy in future. and let the daddy be the evil one! haha thou' yah my mum scold me oso. of the 3kids despite i'm the eldest i guess i make dad and mum the most worried.

becox i trust ppl easily. oso becox from young my health not v gd. haha. alwaes hearing daddy say abt how he used to visit me when i was a newborn baby. took cabs trips to and fro hospital jus to feed me milk. i guess he dote on us in diff ways. (the 3 of us).

i guess i was lucky.
nvrtheless. i love my daddy. Y

2009-06-20T22:56:00.002+08:00

*when freq is not right..
its jus nvr right! :(

today was a ok day at work. (:
time passed quite fast when working.

which is good. ^^
but i've cuts and scratches. and my hands ultra dry alrdy.
hand cream. my nivea handcream!

WATSON WHY MY HSE NEARBY DUN HAVE! grr.

den hmm. fast forward. took 197 home wif vanessa. (:
chat chat chat!

next sat quick come pls!!
i guess sat no matter how bad the day had went in the day.

my night will end off good.
or rather fri nite it'd be gd alrdy! :D

exciting!
& ps; i'm a cute pig! oink oink. ^(..)^ *ANYHW i noe.
but i'm hungry alot alot nowadaes. yet i dun really eat?

every 2 or 3 days den i'd touch rice. (not on purpose duh!)
last time rice is a daily must!! yet the wt dun go down.

i guess cox i did had noodle or fried stuff tts why.
bleahhhh. i nvr cut hair i look messy.

the longer the hair grow. the more i'd bu she de cut later. boo!
& i'm worried. dear ying.

o7more days!~Y
hoho. sooon soon i'd type its tml! :D

2009-06-19T17:12:00.002+08:00

yvonne is twittering! (:
*click twitter on the right.. --->

laine had one too. (:

aniway i lke today. ^^
richmond helped me with my cluster.
had fab chat with my ying & dearest!! :D
funny tt dearest gav hints and i die die dun get it!! >.<

& i've enjoyed my lunch with laine.
HAHA twin alwaes buy alot things at ntuc and she payyy!~ (x and i got to eat garlic riceeeeeeee. love tt man! hehehe.

& yahhh the wants! ---->
added too! 5 wants for now. (:

o8more days!Y
excitinggggggg!~ xD

2009-06-19T12:02:00.000+08:00

GRRRR. damn stupid tp!!! >.<
i cant log in to do my selection!!! wth.

but just now was chattin with dearest on msn.
he said my weakest point is i'm too kind.

tskk. but i dun lke ppl sad. lke everyone happy.
weird right. i mean myself. :p

and now with my dear ying!!~
ANGWEEEEEEEEEEE. cute dao si way. (:

but tp web jus cant load. or rather..
it load & signed me out. damn.

I WANNA DO MY SELECTION!! *cluster 2
damn damn damn.

but i've own thinking of.. chooosing tt.
hopefully not another 3mth thingie of mine man.

at least now tt seems lke sth i'd head towards.
so thus. i chose my interest over the rest. i noe its damn hard.

but.. i'd try not say i regret.
if not scold me!! remind me. I CHOSE IT shuld not regret!

*tskkkk sounds so damn brave now hur. later regret.
find no one for me cry to. cox i really deserve scoldin den.

~~TP! i wan do my selection!!!!!!!!~~
thankfully there's Richmond. & ying!! :D
ying gt him to help me!! thanks thanks!

2009-06-19T01:16:00.000+08:00

today's quite nice. (:

buffet at furama hotel.
ppl present: ivan. eliza. laine. wl. jh. hy & me!

before tt. i had the map. but i nvr bring or rather nvr tell anione. (xcept laine whom i sent her oso) den end up we cabbed there. at 1st cox i tot ivan noe hw to go. HAHA.

lesson learnt?
dun pass map to a gal who see map jus for the color & pic.
& whom had no sense of direction! :p

den buffet. kinda nice. my 1st meal of the day.
haha i tink my eating habits really no gd. either eat alot or dun eat. -.-

bt chat over meal is kinda fun. :D
tink i really seldom meet humans other den family members this holi. HAHA.

after dinner. clarke quay. nono we wasnt there to drink.
but to see ppl bungeeee jumping!! EXCITING TO MAX. but haha i'd die die oso wont try it. haha i'm damn scared of this type of thing. i guess if i were on top. i'd have died of heart attack there. hehe.

den off to marina parade library there. cox mr jh forgt bring ivan's bdae present. -.- den eww i had to take off my heels there alrdy. (yes wore heels thou' short one bt for the 1st time since i bought it) thus my legs kinda peeled. the skin. :(

but hope ivan lke the present. hp!
thou' chiong de bt haha v look-alke pls. (x

8more days!Y
weeeeeeheeee!~

2009-06-18T13:12:00.000+08:00

editted/
read a story online.
the ending.. 「叶子的离开，是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留。」

a sad but oso happy endin to the story. if the endin is another one. it'd have been..如果树的挽留，叶子不会离开，但风会默默离去。。 >.< bleahhhh!!

end of edit. feeling ~~vexed.~~ better.
talk to dearest on msn a short while.^^ sat shuld be meetin??
hmm cant do much. dun tink so much oso alrdy. if can. (:

yvonne is freaking upset. terribly sorry. shuldnt have sent the mail. no backspace for mails. :(

but thanks ying&sarah!! (:
spam 'em. >.< ~~distance the thing? or am i?~~

HAPPY 18th birhday mr ivan wong!!
finally 18. woots.

wish u happy happy all the time.
all wishes come true!

& finally really legal to drink!! tskk. :D

2009-06-18T10:36:00.000+08:00

no mood for lunch.
maybe i'd buy bread later.

sometimes really dun unds why i wake up so early.
yup ytd talk to twin. she said shuld have 1 day naturally wake up.

yet this holi. i'm unable to do it. how nice.
bleahh.

hmm almost end of holi alrdy.
wasnt feeling any huh this holi end so fast thingie for me. becox to me its damn slow. and also it do not feels lke a holiday at all.

this holiday wad have i done?
sentosa with dearest to kick start the holi. ^^ (gt my cable ride)
the projs. :(
meet up once with dear ying. ^^ &richmond!

no more meetin with ppl liao leh.! pathetic.
compared to my last holiday.. every 2 days go out once or wad.

this holiday i've learnt.
to wipe tears tt rolled down silently.
to make friends with lonliness.
to keep more things to myself. (everyone v busy u noe. i've to be sensible!)
to stop spam emails tt much. to stop clicking hp for msg.

to have more time for myself. (ALOT MORE cox i dun meetup ppl)
which is why i tend to talk to myself more nowades den anyone else. yah i have tendancy to zi yan zi yu. even if i'm with friends. its jus this got even more when i'm alone. tsk tsk.

to accept wadeva tt might be given.
to get on with things as it is. (even thou i dun wan! wth)
to tell myself to smile to smile.

now i'm learning..
to not put my hopes too high.
to things might not be wad i had been naive enough to think it is.

to wadeva things or whoever. i'd learn to smile to say gdbye next time round! (:

maybe now wad i nid is overcome darkness. still am somehow scared of darkness. sucks. when alone i'd feel uneasy and v uncomfortable. -.-

now looking forward to meeting sarah next sat. ^^ chats finally!
but maybe not meetin dearest before tt liao. nvm. >.<

2009-06-18T01:02:00.000+08:00

when i'm doing my ppt (right now)..
& sth to make the night! :D

Sallapalapilipala says:
K LA
Sallapalapilipala says:
LOVE YOUUUU
Sallapalapilipala says:
HAHAHAHAHA
Sallapalapilipala says:
be happpppy

hahaa yvonne really lkes ppl say love her!! :D *provided i love u bak la. *hops ard* hug sarah!! hahaha.

she says i'm lke small gal omg. opps.
cant wait till next sat.

seeing her for supper. (:
but before tt. shuld be sat i'd be seein dearest liao?? *hopefully*

9more daysY
finally single digit! :D

2009-06-17T13:20:00.001+08:00

好安静。。
只听见电脑传来的歌；
和“滴答滴答”的打字声。。

*如果我变成回忆- tank*
update later agn bah. >.< i always think things too simple.
&when i noe its so complicated.. the mind got disrupted.

10more daysY
soon soon. (:

editted/
i've been doing work. got the no mood feel. damn. :(
but video called with sarah!!! darling we shuld do this often. :D i'd hear her poly friend's voice. the guys sounds lke machine sehh. *opps* duno why guys voice v low i'd tink lke machine de. HAHA.

i'm real bored at home.
hopefully fri can go cut hair. (v v messy le!)

& really gt urge cut short. but doubt i doing so. wait till sep den say.
&hope tml's gonna be fun! xD

still 10 more daysY ):
yvonne is hungry now!! D:

ARGH. damn.
my chin there gt a pimple popped while i was bathing..
must be i wash face tt time make dao. bleed. pain. :'(

stupid!!! swollen pain. grrr. & i wanna dinner!

2009-06-16T20:45:00.000+08:00

yvonne is feeling better
from this few days. (:

went to sch for apfs proj. in sch for less den 3hrs.
but there's only serene. lilian. levina & me. (:

distribute the work. serene & lilian helped me to do the photocopying. *thankyou*
den out of tp. (x

suddenly had the thought of being alone.
so i roam along bedok ALONE. woots. althou' only for a short while. but its been a damn long time since i've done things alone. i mean other than going sch and back home alone. but u noe walk along the streets alone?? bought sushi. (which i goin throw later. forgt put in fridge) -.-

acty was thinkin shuld i go to ecp?
*i nid a breather* suddenly this thought on my mind.

yet ecp. as those who noe me. i'm an idiot on road.
thus. i can go in ecp. but cfm i cant get out. so better not. & its supposed to be a place i stored all my fond memories. (YES so far ecp i only have happy memories. no tears there before yet..)

**see below

but after walkin ard bedok for awhile. i did felt better. msg laine if she's off work.
and impromtu eating at pasta mania with twin!! (x

sorry make u wait so long seh!
my 1st time taking 196 to parkway from bedok. (short trips in 196 dun count duh) and on the way lke sua gu. admiring the scenery. hehe. and met laine. *feels bad she waited so long for me*

den we ate. ALOT. *burp* ahhaha.
and craving for old chang kee. and we had one each. LOL. i really can eat alot when i want to. heng not always. if not i'd really become. ^(..)^ PIG! oink.

den we went library. my twin bring me jaywalk. HAHA den she borrowed 6books. and put 'em ALL in my bag. heavy lehh. den i nvr see car. heng she pulled me back.and best. SHE BRING ME CHASE BUS! win liao.

when with her i dun chase bus? jaywalk de. HAHA told her with her i'll die earlier. den she said i wont. cox she done tt often. -.- bleahhhh. den its home time. ^^

slept for awhile. really pig. eat and slp. had chicken wing for dinner. haha. xD
sometimes i ate damn lil' sometimes i ate damn much. wth. xtreme me.

today i'm nt at all 恶毒！ i'm a gal who's in her emo mood.
yet getting herself back on track. hello world yvonne's back. (x

**sometimes i really lke some time alone. its really damn rare of me wanting to walk alone or wad. without anyone to pei me. becox somehw my character i nid someone there for me. althou' mayb it'd be good if there's someone i'm familiar with walking with me but not talking to me. let me rest and lean on to? ok walking cant sit down hav pillar. (something i lke recently is lean on pillar. siting at busstop) and comforting to hav someone there. hmm. (i'm contradicting myself agn)

but cant be last min msg anyone. hey i'm at bedok. emo-ing. wan find me pei wo!! and everyone's too busy with their own life somehow.. ok lets nt rant. i'm alrite. i'm fine now.

alrite and fine. i'm ok. is sth i'd learn.

11more days! Y
就算一点也不OK; 我也会说我没事！
我会试着找回微笑。为自己..

有时一个人静一静；其实也不错 (:

2009-06-16T11:33:00.000+08:00

my microsoft word got prob alrdy!!! :((((((
i cant open documents tt i've saved in my desktop.

how how how. :(
ok i do not nid 'em now. bt wad if sch reopen? *SCREAM*

*pulls hair* :(

nvm. & yvonne gonna stop her typing ~~fked up..~~
i'm gonna be a v gd gal. i'm just not going do anithing anymore.

not gonna think animore (if i can)
becox thinking gots me v v tired and starts hav alot ????

damnit. microsoft pls be good.
have to wait for bro home and ask him!

2009-06-15T22:37:00.000+08:00

did i mentioned abt bff(erica) and i having this..
"路线" thingie everyday?

it started random with sweety. cuttie. in her msg.
& i self-proclaimed i'm the cuttie. :D*bhb*

but next day i'm sweety. (switch roles u see)

den hello..today i'm smartie & she's m&m!! :D
LOL. and guess wad "route" i walking tml..??

e du (恶毒)!!!*FAINT* & worse.. she said.
i no nid ke yi (purposely) naturally i can be e du alrdy! thx AHHH! -.-

i'm usually ~~sweet and cute.~~ in my whining mode.
seldom gt ppl say i e du lu xian de lo. *slaps ~~myself~~ HER! :p
*ok bu she de* LOL. shi wo ren hao!!!~

12more days Y
soon single digit of counting down.
i'm waiting to see the pics. but worried now! :(

2009-06-15T12:57:00.000+08:00

最近的我。。
越来越静

我要的是什么？
everytime i've found my ans.

i ended up lost agn. fked.
the world crashin on me. yet i dun hav the ability to hold 'em.

hectic. cries. blah.
i'm a weakling.

bff jus sent this msg
*希望在你和我之间找到相同的地方
听着这首歌
这是我为一能寻找到靠近你的感觉*

let me think of wad i wan type in chi.
伸出手想等你握
我却懦弱地在这一秒缩回了手
只因幸福从未着真正属于我

所以我不能自私
只有放手。。才能将一切会到所谓的原点
对吧？？

*就算最后也无法躲过狠狠摔一跤的命运
至少过程幸福过！

the * is bff add on to mine de.
i tink both of us if write chi tgt woots. drown ppl to tears man.

ok nth be proud cox its gonna be super emo to get all this feel. -.-
ok my chi sucks now. :(
one moment i'm in heaven the next i'm falling.

2009-06-15T11:11:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry for everything.
terribly sorry;

but i cant turn back time to 2 or 3yrs back.
can i?

if i really have to choose. it'd be u.
but i'd not have the smiles or happiness now.

yet i'd not be the carefree me back then,
couple years back.

2009-06-14T22:32:00.000+08:00

repeitition at work.

pondering over wad sk said today. the short chat with her.
也许我们的路还很长。但我决定相信结局是好的。
这样的想法是对的吧?? :(

its kinda hard to work with ppl asking whrs wb.
blahhh. bleahhh. all the ques bombing.

i've lost my blogging bug. -.-

i prefered last holi. at least almost everynight i'd have my reason to smile.

~~i hate the random tears at the eyes. whenever i'm pondering.~~
but yet when the tears went off. dried or wad. yes i refused to cry. *proud*

~~i'd hav felt better. strange arent it? i had the urge to yell.~~

new fav song. 真心话&rain.
真心话- 喜欢你想爱你想说真心话

rain-世界不过是一个小小屋檐
你说如果雨一直下到明天
我们就厮守到永远

i lke tt part of rain lyrics becox tt used to be the bg music of a 933 story.
lke zhen xin hua becox the catchy lyrics just linger in the ear.

i'd still subconciously clicked the hp for msg.
grrrr. damn. :(

*13more days* Y
can i countdown quickly?
shuld really stop spam emails. :'(

2009-06-13T23:19:00.000+08:00

i'm v busy munchin ruffles.
drinking bubble tea. (w.o pearl) thx to twin buy for me.

work's ok today.
haha i'm lazy to blog sehh.

bt returns are OMG! *FAINT*

i lke recent msges with bff.
sweety. cuttie. HAHAHA. *insider's joke*

and smiled at hp after work. wahahaha. xD
dearest!~ woots. even nt in sg still can make me smile. :D

14more days!~ Y
qi dai tt day!

*sarah i misss you loads.
do take care kkk!! u look damn freaky tired. & sickkk.
i'd see u soon! :D

i went to spam dearest msn. :(
i didnt mean to. :(((((((((( i was supposed to feel v sweet.

yet its kinda ruined. i tot i'd be havin sweet dream today.
fked. :(

2009-06-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

nothing much to blog.
joycelyn dun wan her yvonne jiejie. :(
(she only wan her fav jie jie=my twin)

but i'm lke unglam almost everyday on webcam with eric nowades.-.-
tskkk and ke ai de yvonne here and there.

hoho. and i'm damn bhb.

ok i wasnt really in the mood to blog.
damn restless.

only lke msn with erica&ying.
and emails spamming to dearest!~

15more days!~ Y
kuai kuai come bakk.

damn ~~fucked up.~~
nicer phrasing = pissed.

2009-06-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

day spent in sch doing proj. nls.
also finding of csas individual proj notes.

but in sch now checking emails can get me smile.
expecially if i've gt an email with a v sweet title. (:

thankyou richmond&ying come tp to fetch me go parkway! (x
smiled the instant i saw dear ying.

the night was fun to max.
had ai ji sen. (duno hw spell) for dinner. with ying+richmond.

den parkway was too sian. went to play pool.
my 1st visit sehh. and richmond damn damn nice to max. v patient in teaching me.
& guess ying had fun "suan" wo. HAHA but i dun mind.

today the greatest laugh i had for the wk.
thx to the 2 of 'em. and thankyou richmond&ying drive me back home!

i seriously am 90% sure of giving up thought of learning driving.
cox i gav richmond wrong direction to even my own house. oh man.

i waiting someone zai wo de liao la. HEHE.
& sep v far away but i'm lookin forward abit liao.

~~chop the 2 guys.~~ haha ok i wont she de chop 'em. :P
i've asked dearest to teach me pool when his back. so i can play better. HAHHA.

but say say only i oso wont have time. given hw busy it was now.

life's just a repeitition.
i'm just in the world of. sadness. anger. unhappiness.

happiness took only such a small portion.
but i'd be fine. i'd be fine.

16more days` Y
wo hao xiang ni.

2009-06-10T20:00:00.000+08:00

had a quick dinner at the coffeeshop agn.
nowadaes keep going coffeeshop eat dinner.

but i didnt mind. (: becox hawker=packed=noisy.
and duno why i've been having kinda lil' for dinner nowadaes.

hmm. bt lunch i did finish my garlic fried rice. (daddy alwaes tinks its a waste to eat garlic fried rice. becox there's only garlic fried the rice with eggs and lil' seaweed on top with no meat and cost 3bucks.)

tsk i feel lke i'm growin fat sehhh. nowadaes alot ppl telling me time for exercise!! but i nid ppl accompany me to exercise wad. + personal health reason. but me wan learn cycling hopefully end of this yr. (x

but this holi high chance of fattening up. cox i buy chips today. (haven eat 'em thou) my fav ruffles. tml proj agn. tsk.

but mayb tml i'd have dinner with my DEAR YING YING! if no hiccups inbtwn tml. i misss her alot. (: can chat chat chat. whine whine whine. laugh laugh laugh. with HER.

*ps; sometimes i type lke some kid. weird sounds. weird repetitions of words. tskk tskk. but i duno how stop 'em!!! den TOO BAD!!

i tink sometimes i'm a lil' tad too extreme.
i can get v furious with someone. yes v v furious.

i can be a meanie in my own world tinking abt some stuff.
getting happy with perhaps it'd soon be over. tsk tts me.

cry laugh hate love.
jus as how my feeeling goes.

wadevaaaaaaa.

i missss you.
17more days.Y

2009-06-10T14:09:00.000+08:00

wads life been for at home whole day.
and not out of hse? (xcept to pack lunch.)

its nt boring but a damn lonely feel at home. :(
i've only the lappy. the tv (which i nvr on today) and my itouch.

and perhaps my mickey. but its on the bed. and it cant talk to me.

morning 10 wake up. (cox i set alarm) and webcam with bff.
to get the link from bai fen bai ytd. stupid me fall aslp on sofa ytd till 2am. when i alrdy cheng till 1am to watched tt show. funny to max.

and video cam with her. and ding ding. hp msg in.
my dearest msg me!~ but worried. vomit there. :(

v excited to share with erica. haha the msg throu video cam. and email-ed him.
i tink i spam alot mails le. now msn with him. ~~BUT WHY WEBCAM DUN WORK IN SHANGHAI! :(~~ it worked liao. VIDEO CAM! *smile smile* show my mickey to him. and i've some pics nw. (x

*wasnt meant be emo*
if i worked today. mayb i wont be lonely at home. bt agn i dun wan it crashed with proj and i tink i nid some time to think. to rest. to recharge. bt somehw contradicting irony to how i lke the peaceful-ness at home. alone. yet i dun lke the lonliness hidden behind.

perhaps i'm too used to hectic life thus once the pace slowed down. i start to feel the emptiness inside within me. this wasnt meant to be emo. i shuldnt be complaining. soon i'd be busy agn. so now shuld be enjoying the peace. shuldnt i??

世界的喧哗；心里的空虚
两种对比。。好强烈

遮住耳朵还是听得见外面的吵闹
做很多事让自己好像很忙;其实不然

从新学着。。放慢脚步
看看身旁的人；事；物。

17 more daysY

2009-06-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

the day is jus FPQA.
from 9am in sch till almost 7am.

day start with dearest oversea msg. (:

did borrowed csas bk. and done the fpqa proj. *hopefully nth went wrong. spent quite sometime watchin BOF on youtube.

saw dearest email in sch. * really wish i can reply his sms.
v excited to reply. a v short one.

jus replied a quite long email. lke blogging lke tt. :p
today nth much to post. cox i jus "blogged".

oh yahh ytd talked to ying. for quite long.
i'm thankful. & yes both of us shi xing fu de. (x

i misssssss you!
18days Y

now yvonne lkes to go hotmail and see if any new emails.
hmm tsk bt nid wait 1day for a reply. :(

2009-06-08T21:09:00.000+08:00

editted;
i just smiled lke some idiot to my hp. the whole msg v sweet. (:
was acty upset with sth. and was %*&( at erica's msn. tskkkk. :p

end of edit/

just had dinner.
saw daddy's eldest bro and his wife.

so ate with 'em zhi cha. (spell lke this??) awkward dinner.
cox althou' they are the best among daddy's relatives. as in i noe they are the nice ppl lahh. bt to hav zhi cha tgt is kinda weird. den wads more they had CRABS.

i dont hate crabs. neither am i allergic to crabs. its just i seldom eat crabs. (only lke putting 'em into steamboat soup for the sweetness) i duno how to eat crabs.

duno how to open out the shells and eat the meat. and using hands= messy. *i'd much prefer ppl peel or open the shell for me. same theory as i dun lke eat fish outside scared gt bones. i dun lke prawn unless ppl peel. cox scared ma fan. -.-

tsk daddy say i eat dao v you xiu *read in hokkien. i tink its cox i eat v slow. and using hands i'd v gentle = even more slow.

and the adults keep eat more eat more. yvonne dun eat more de!! hahha.

but its sweet to how daddy's bro helped the wife cleared the crab shell tt landed on her hair and how the wife keep gua gua jiao abt how he ordered so much food and she'd be fat. hav to exercise 1more hr tml. i alwaes tink when ppl are old still so sweet still gt topic talk is v v ewwwww.

chocs really do cheer one's up. i ate choc just now! :D
shuld i stock more?? hmmm. and i'm craving for cafe cartel!!~

i've urge to really go spam emails. :p
can i can i?

still 19days. Y

2009-06-08T16:16:00.000+08:00

ytd slpt at 2++ almost 3am.
after msgin dearest and help laine switched off all her charging things.

waking up with the hp beside me. (hmm mayb i shuld take a pic of my bed. how spacious it is now liao. so much space after my 20++ toys all packed away. left 4 on the bed)

*still gettin used to a much more spacious bed.* cox now i flip still dun take much space.

woke up at 7am. cox of laine alarm. started msging dearest. till he went in to check in.
damn damn she bu de. :( its JUST 3wks!!!!!

after he checked in. he called me. i jiu cry le. damn useless.
but i've alrdy warned him once i hear his voice i'd teared.

i'm not used to talking on the phone de. (used to love talk on phone when i was younger) so i nvr chat on phone with him before de. its alwaes call cox we meet up den see whr m i. but well. i lke hearing the voice over the phone! (:

yes nid to get used to him alwaes flying. zoom zoom fly fly.
and yah he unds hw i dun lke to say gdbye to anyone. be it sudden bye or alrdy i noe someone 'd be back. i duno why perhaps cox depend too much.

cute him lined up to be the last so we can chat longer. den its time to hang up the phone. :'(
i watched boys over flowers till abt 11 and slp after msging erica.

woke up cox of a few msges. (cox i on msg tone as i'm afraid i'd miss twins' msg to meet me for lunch) and ended up 12 i woke up le. watched boys over flowers agn. the 3rd epi just done only.

and read 30+ pages of my the 5 ppl u meet in heaven.
off to meet laine for lunch at 2+ 3.

345 lke tt. dearest msged. he reached liao. (yes i'd smile smile smile) if not for the stupid cox of oversea msg i'd hav replied him! hehe.

but poor him. yvonne gonna spam his email inbox. :p

shian's msg got me to pondered over things.
somehw i nvr tink of wad he said alrdy. (means i tink before some time ago)

if dun hold on tight to things. the next moment u wanted to hold on to tt person. he/she would have been gone. even if its wads call the true love. time waits no man. somehw true? but now i still cant hold on tight even if how sure i was alrdy. why ppl alwaes dun unds this part. tsssk.

so many up for holis. but somehw i lke today jus sit on sofa jus lie on bed. jus read a bk watched a video. luxury for me somehw been long since i've been home stoning. if not for biding gdbye.

i'm waitin for call to say hello. *yvonne lkes hello much more*
19days. Y

tml fpqa proj meet up write report!

2009-06-08T01:31:00.000+08:00

i asked for his flight number just.
he asked me why i asked??

cox ytd he scared me later his flight lke france tt airplane.
i v scared. tml i wanna watch news keep a close lookout.

*pray* and yvonne waitin his morning call after his check in.

2009-06-07T23:12:00.001+08:00

the day went on fine. but i wake up gloomy. :(
nth much today. no much bangs and bumps or wad.

morning we reached pop quite early. browse the storybks. and dearest dream cute dao! (x

jus the penknife blade touched the hand. but wasnt bleeding.
a lil' scratch cox of 3m light. and the leg stil hurt abit.

lunch was alrdy msgin erica abt i tink today i'd v sad. tml worse. she replid aiya 3mths only v fast de. zoom past. i replied 3wks pls 3mths i'd die man. ask him bring me go. :p

today dinner hav shian and edric. edric makes me tink poly diploma really hav hope in some things. i noe tts wad i'm doing now. survive throu' all this no matter how tough it is. i noe i noe. shian's i shuld go uni. gals shuld go uni. if not u wait ppl feed u meh. i nod head.

i wont be those type married le will work wa full time type. but i wont wait ppl feed oso wad. tskkkk. and shian was saying my hp gonna be quite quiet 3wks. and i shuld dial international call. if i dial i sure kena from mummy wad. -.-

today's the last day i saw yn. she's been the one who guide me all along and i nvr gt scolded by her before despite everyone sayin shes harsh shes fierce blah. bt she dote me i can feel it. gonna miss her.

and after work update bankbk. dearest say my watch gettin looser. tsk i noe i noe. (: talk to dearest alot. on the bus oso. he sent me home. we talked alot at the hse bus stop. alot alot. i noe i'm gonna miss dearest dao lke wad. from dec to now everyday msg from nowadaes gdmorning till gdnite msges.

i told him. when i see him 3wks later i'm going to beat him dao si. (i duno why i lke nudge or hit him) beat dao si i tink dear ying unds why. :p 19days v fast de right? the hardest was to say bye to him. v v tough.

i'm v glad he unds my reason for the random. (: i wanna blessing. bt i waitin dearest bak. see wad can be done to my bracelet. lke the hook wan came off le lehhh. oh yah i tink i no nid go library alone liao lah. i've 3bks to read. one i buy de. 2dearest de. soon i tink my hse alot his things cox i take and nvr return lke tt. hehe.

THANYOU ELAINE. (:
finally dear ying online. i cant wait to meet her one day i swear.

and i'm v happy recently erica and my msges. i kept tellin her wo shi ke ai de yvonne. ke ai de yvonne do this ke ai de yvonne do tt. its bhb bt i duno why i can do tt to her. when i noe its irritating. :p

i'd be seeing u in 3wks time. to be exact count down from tml 19days. jus 19 days i'd hear ur voice over the phone once u touched down. and when i see u i'd beat u!! :p Y

dont know why things from then all flow to the mind tonite.
happiness sadness. all here. but its all for a gd cause?

tml start 19 more days.

2009-06-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

* HEAVY PICS CONTENT! :D
now its 113am. but let me blog my day 1st..

today wasnt a bad day. xcept i bumped my head against the metal rack. :( pain!! but funny enough the 1st thing i do was touched my head to see if i was bleeding. cox its metal tt i hit.

and i only told dearest abt this i hit myself. (until home time den i told laine and mummy) and the days goes. saw soh hua and wenli (:

and well few weird customers. and later jh come find me at night. den after work we (me. jh. dearest.) wait for laine to xia ban. jh was lke a kid. keep jumping ard. and i saw his basic theory bk. :( me THINKIN DUN TAKE THE TEST LE! so damn difficult lke tt. hahaha wait ppl fetch me better lehh. :p

as usual jh was the joker. and when laine come. eww interesting! i scared jh once today! woots. achievement. and later the fetching of cab oso funny. jh and laine trying so hard to fetch the cab. and let dearest up 1st. and we went on the other cab. jh alight 1st. and i'm damn amazed by laine. she can led driver bak to my hse there leh.! SOO DARK. but stupid driver irritated by my twin. twin kinda angry lke duhh! :p

ok and pics of ytd. i've compiled 'em. cox i cant be possibly loading.. 50++ pics. :p but i went to rename the pics by sentosa 1 2 3 so and and so fore. den i edit and rename 'em as memories 1 2 3. etc. list goes on. ENJOY! :D

ps; some pics i dun hav! my birds pics. my 15th storey pics. 1 inside cable car pics. hahaha i rmb hor!!

in the cable car dearest passed me his camera. so yahh i was the photographer of the day. almost all pics i take de. tts why yahh ppl who noes me well. my style. i take alot non-living thing

the start of cable car ride. before the cable car went off. dearest ask i scared height not. den i was saying i tink i scared. bt later no leh! v fun! *hav the both of us inside. zipai pic. but cant post! HAHA.

me wanna sit cruise one day! just wait 1 day. (x

reached sentosa finally. see the merlion. the 3rd pic is whr i've been to 3yrs back? with laine. eliza. sihui! the fourth pic.. we forgt to take the night time one. v nice! gt light. NEXT TIME!

this was the funny pic. the auntie took jus us w.o merlion.
dirty dirty merlion. u nid a bathe! :p *i look same height as him!

1st pic. i'm taking it the next trip hopefully! & i'd see the rest play the 3rd pic. i'm scared of this type of height. see the last 2 pics? the peacock. in a pair. colorful one was the male one. v sweet right!

SPELL S.I.L.O.S.O!~ (x

see the parrot! take a close look at tt guy holdin 'em. i gt take pics of other birds lo! haha and i love the sea. and we spent some time inside the "tower" v cooling. shiok. and the cloud v nice.

the so bad squrriel tt scared me off. :X

otw for dinner. back to point 1 whr we start the journey.

i lke the two cows. so sweet! and see the tiger? v nice right!

our dinner! :D (training me eat more.)

VIVO!!!!!! the fourth pic look lke snowman. the last was the moon.

one more day to dearest trip. :( so fast.

fast fast 19days over soon too!

微笑的理由.Y

2009-06-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

yvonne is a v v happygal on 5juneo9`
*spam smileys*

lets blog the day. :D

morning wake up ard 9 and nvr slp back. (thx to new pillow agn) den bathe wait for mummy do her stuff. and went to market. maid for the day. carried 4kg of limes for mummy to her workplace. before tt even went hawker to dabao rice for her workplace ppl. -.-

and took bus bt wa the hand almost brk. (cox even lappy is heavy to me wadsmore 4kglimes)!~ den ermm abit irritated by mummy there bt later its ok. ^^ she went with me for kfc bt haha mummy say i eat 2pcs chick dun eat better. cox i removed skin and wanted to absorb the oil. (which nvr in the end la).

den took cab to lorong8. pei-ed mummy to dental. and home to help mummy change bedsheets. den bathe and met dearest @ 2+. took 7 to bugis (suppose be kallang bt missed the stop).

and took mrt to outram and off the habour front! had some time finding whr to buy cable tix. cox of the misleading signs. -.- and den off to tower 2. dearest bought the tix. ^^ off to 15lvl.

& tada` CABLE CAR!!
my dream came true thx to dearest! :D

but we alight wrong place. ended up with henderson wave. mount faber there. and was happily walking for siloso beach. den the more we walk the more lke wrong. and asked an uncle there. den he was lke wrong way. and we walked bak to take cable car agn! HAHAHA CUTE DAO!

and ta`da sentosa! v funny we asked an auntie to take photo for both of us under merlion. and v funny she take nice pic of two of us. yes WE TWO but nth of merlion. -.- laughed abt tt lah bt the pic nice. ^^ took a tram to siloso! but nth much there. alot place under constructions. we went palawan beach oso.

and hehe i forgt places name v easily de. bt walk dao v sweaty and sticky. (been long since i'm sticky cos sweat) but the sun wasnt too scorching. lucky lucky bt i lke the sun on the body feel leh. vit D! :p

i lke palawan bridge. ^^ and haha so so hope sep can go agn. with ying!!! was telling dearest abt it and can play the skyride thingie. ohh yahh my mind wasnt much in squence as alwaes.

but i'm scared by a squirrel. haha yes squirrel. cox i was tryin to snap pic of it. den later dearest try snap. (its on a tree) den suddenly it jus went down the tree up to another. during the process of from one tree to another. i'm scared by it. and was tuggin dearest shirt and run to his another side. gt a kid with the mum lookin at me. v paiseh!

and gt peacock scared me oso. gt dog oso. i'm jus so so scared of animals!!

den oh yah. dearest die die wan find the place whr gt alot food he research on the net. and we found it. intend to had subway but too packed we went to hav pizza! and he bought a 12inch pizza. v v big!

i had 3 pieces. and HAHAHA he had to finished the rest. opps! he said his training me to eat more. but haha ended up he had to be v full. cox there's alot pieces. bt yay we finished 'em. ^^ and i had some sports drink. nice strawberry flavour. ps- todae i drank alot alot water!

and off to take cable car back to vivo! the night scenery v nice!! but pics taken in cabin cant reali be seen. cox v DARK! but off flash can snap the night view. nice dao!! but weird thing is dearest 'll hav ear block. i wont have lehh. lucky me.

we went to the place we went with ying tt time. and sat there for quite awhile to chat. i lke to chat there. and we was talkin abt pointing to moon will hav the ear cut. both of us xperience it before lehh. and i was askin him to point and try agn! :p

i tink i'd gt lost if at sentosa alone.. gt a part dearest talkin abt we v ben. den i'm lke shi ni ben cox i was following u all the while. den his v cute yah wo ben. :p &dearest realised i told him abt i'd murmur to myself is true. i really did murmur to myself quite a few times. -.-

yvonne is a happygal cox..
she pei-ed mummy today.
she had a great day with dearest. Y 3 more days.
her dream came true.

thankyou dearest for the day. and feel bad u've spent quite abit! :X
now now three pics out of 50+ pics (with onli less den 5 pics with the both of us in) to end the post and i'd upload the rest soon. (x

MY DREAM CAME TRUE! o5juneo9` (:

i feel v proud of this pic leh. gt a v cant describe feel abt the pic angle and color. nvr edit any part of the pic before. :p

end the post with. me&dearest! Y

2009-06-05T02:20:00.000+08:00

i've jus uploaded the folders in itouch.
thx laine teach me how organise the pics. (:

i'd upload more soon. and ps;
most of my pics are penguins.

and its of chalet last yr. penguins.
been long since we take pics lke some siao ppl! the pics still bought a smile over my face u noe.

loads to do;
time for bed its 230am! :p

2009-06-04T21:44:00.000+08:00

*take a deep breathe in*
wad do i smell of...??

spell 'em.
F.R.E.E.D.O.M!

the papers wasnt easy at all. rather depressing.
quick updates.

after each ppr. i'd feel v upset.
past few days i tink i've cut off contact with the world. (my msn world) except with dearest and erica? cox i only sms with them. and also with family ppl other den a4 whom i seen in sch.

DAMN BLOODY MISSS MY YING YING!

damn cut off from world.
over the days. was upset over a few things. cried a few times.

dearest sms me everyday to wake up study. and one of the days erica too. cox i was v afraid of.. cant wake up 2pm paper. the mind really reached an extent of tiredness.

but well. sigh.
today freedom. had a farewell party. times lke this i lke A4's unity. (:
and after tt. off to watch movie. monster vs alien? with clique 6.

been long since we went movie tgt. (: the movie rather funny and the monsters v cute!!!
enjoyed the impromtu movie outing. (: gt a cute toy which lynnette kept 'em.

i miss my old pillow bloster. :(
i miss huggin mickey to bed!!

and tml i'd be a gd gal with mummy for the day. ^^
den off outing with dearest! (: so fast 4more days to dearest's trip.

as i've said holi i wont be workin durin wkday. this will be the 1st break i'd not be working during holi. time for a break. yvonne zhen de lei liao. somehw dun ask me lei wad bt i tink the tiredness somehow mentally.?

quite a couple things piled for holi.
projs. read story bk. watch vcds. go library alone.

too many things to get rid of in the mind. time to move on to another phrase.
cluster 1 or cluster 2?? my mind quite set alrdy. pls nth waver my mind set.

no regrets pls. no no no!!

2009-05-31T11:40:00.000+08:00

i arent suppose to be online.
but i nid to read on fpqa notes online.

cox the printer spoilt. :(
and its a fked up feel to wake up feeling this way.

a thing refered. but well. tink of ytd tink of ytd.
smile smile smile. and get on with fpqa is wad i nid.

i'm a happy gal ytd. becox dearest buy my chocs agn. (x
and.. i talk alot ytd tink most for the past wk. *spams smiles Y

i'm feeling damn afraid.
jus tell me it's gonna be fine pls.

on hiatus till thurs nite
this time for real.

2009-05-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

i'd be on hiatus till thurs.
updates till then. (:

ps; good luck to all my darlings whose taking term test. ^^

& yahh i forgt say
thankgod A4 wasnt a selfish class. we are united as one.
when come to projs and test. (:

2009-05-29T18:48:00.000+08:00

today i guess was the best day of the wk. (:
nth much really happened.

my right hand damn cramp. was chionging to copy the notes of fpqa. gosh top speed but the handwriting.. -.- i duno if i can still tell wad i writing then nt. tsk.

learnt and ponder over wads in apel.
yup. life. as it was. love betwn humans.

watch breastfeeding video during nls. i was xcited to watch it jus now. becox it seem interesting. and indeed it was. mothers are damn wei da!! haha and wonder how many daddys acty accompany the mummy into the room when she gav birth?

was tellin levina i'd lke tt in future. so i can bite ppl to relieve pain. haha cant be bite myself wad right. mux share the pain. haha. but hmm i'm reali getting interested in this. but nls notes are damn damn crazy. v v full of sci terms. grr grrr.

and yah did the peer evaluation and had my pens refill bought.

1more wk to freedom. (x

2009-05-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

why the stupid hand kept cramping?
cramped one twice thrice.

and past few days oso. minor ones.
but its v irritating when the cramp came so suddenly.

wasnt pain bt impeding.
grr grr. 1228am.

time for bed. smile to begin my day.
if i can. (x

so fast.
11 more days to dearest trip.

2009-05-28T20:20:00.000+08:00

i did start my day with a smile.
becox.. i met sihui on the bus!! (usual for thurs!)

and later at sch bus stop. saw cindy kang.
i swear if not for.. so many ppl at sch bus stop.. i'd hav jumped and hug her! lke damn seriously. but of cox i didnt. jus hold her hand and talk for awhile. cox she had to go for class and yah i was lazy to stand up.

the two made my day with a smile. (:

but rest of day didnt went tt well.
csas3 test. i finished in time. (way before i had lke 20mins before paper end?) althou' i find the paper v difficult. but i find the spelling part manageable. but most of the A4s (ps; my class name) said about not able to finish in time.

hell. why i had so much time left to even check paper twice?
somehw gt a i izzit anyhow do? tts why wa so much time? :( shucks.

and there's csas proj in. :( but it seem my grp ppl are gonna be nice to work with.
there's say hian. lilian. aiting. mahes. and lynnette. but i still had no clue of how the proj work. kinda lost.

den sighhh. supposed today can meet my dear ying for lunch. but well in the end nvr. next time next time!! i'm missing ying! hell loads. *PUFFFFFFFFFFFFF*

and well. nls tml submission. everything done.
fpqa editting ended earlier den expected. *cheers for this 2 complete*

and well. home time.
somehw if today ended 6 i'd be able to meet cindy kang at inter. and jus lie on her or mayb pester her to talk to me. whine and whine to her. i noe v kid. but somehw it'd be damn gd to end the day with someone i can jus rely and smile rather den frown. :(

home. i jus laid on bed and slowly drift to bed. dearest asked if sth went wrong. somehow i really dont lke the me now. holi supposed be a time to recharge but packed with projs.

how many ppl 'll appreciate tt i acty wasnt going to work this coming holi for the wkday? i'm jus workin the normal wkend. not earning the extra buck? becox i'm afraid clash with proj and cant make the committment. but well.

alot ppl tinking why i alwaes had to work. somehw i wasnt taking allowance. spending wad i earn all on my own. but how many ppl unds? i gt tired of pondering all this. study+money matter. sometimes all jus damn ~~fked up.~~ making me terribly vexed. :'(

sth to be happy :D
ytd talked to mummy. its been how long since i reali talk to mummy abt my stuff? sch matters thou' i wish i'd share more with her. but well i'm contented. talkin to mummy and i've cried. the accumulation of the whole day ytd. but quickly i've wiped my tears. didnt wan her worry about me this much. and yahh told her abt my plans to branch into nutri next sem.

and yup. replied the email.
i'm proud of my chi. and i tink i phrase things in a nice way. mayb for me i tink its nice.

*life isn't abt waiting for the storm to pass; it is abt learning to dance in the rain *
i'm learning. v v hard.

如果累了。。
我可不可以任性的放手。。说放弃？？

2009-05-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

checked the email.
the one whom noe me shuld noe. i dun check email at all de. unless yahh someone else is in oversea and i noe they'd email me den i'd religiously checked the email.

i saw a email from ____.
in chinese. cox his eng not gd. 1 yr past. den my rej. now the email. wasnt feeling anithing much except yahh right ULTRA SHOCKNESS.

didnt noe why. my rej then. now 'd still have his email. somehw kinda sry that i dun keep in contact with most ppl i rej. and i kinda forgt this friend in some sense. i'd reply the email ignoring all the concerns. jus an email of saying hi to a long time no see friend.

maybe in the email. i shuld mention../i had this urge to mention..
now there's a someone there whom i'm holdin on? bt this seem so mean. *PULL HAIR* but i dun lke ppl thinking of me when i'm nt thinking of him. seens so damn unfair. mayb he'd bless me? i duno.

wishing me be a happygal jus lke my email.
i'm happy cox of the love ones. bt unhappiness took a major part of the life now.

2009-05-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

tts how i'm feeling x10000000000 times today.

ultra upset. the whole mood.
only time i really truly smiled today was the start of day. dearest wishing me jiayou for the test and presentation. and when i was ultra in an i wish i'd be isolated mode and he said thumb up for me and smile. and his my supporter. (:

but. why. even thou.. i noe.

付出的不可能和得到的成正比。可是为什么当收到的回报连付出的0.1% 都得不到时。。心情是这么差？跌到谷底的心情。加上一连好几夜的不得安眠。。我真的累了。好累好累。。是我太差劲了。对吧?? :(

slpless night. nightmares all making me missing my night of peaceful slp alot. hugging the mickey even tighter these few nights. when 'll these monsters stop haunting me? at least waking up twice a night. :( i'd hav a better slp on next thurs i tink.

sometimes i jus nid an encouraging smile to tell me i'm doing v fine. sometimes i jus nid a pat on the head. sometimes i jus nid a comforting hug. sometimes sometimes. when all above cant be there.. i jus nid nth more den silence. pure silence to turn my isolation mode on. or jus to leave me alone.

i'm vulnerable in some sense. i'm nt tt strong to time and time agn pick myself up from things. expecially when all's a repeating cycle. how many times more do i have the courage. it arent easy to accept a challenge. but a part of me was stubborn to not cry over all this. even thou' i had the urge badly to jus..

dont comment. dont ask.
abt why i'm feeling tt way.

sth a lil' lighter mood.
an uncle asked my bro is he the older one? hehe makes me feels younger by 5yrs!! cox my bro 14 this yr man. oh man i look freaking young or i tink cox his damn tall liao so.. yah i look small beside him. (x

2009-05-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

i'm a happier gal den the past few days now. (:
i'm smiling.

mayb the past days the heart and mind wasnt tt settled. too afraid to lose somehw in some sense? duno i couldnt find xact reason. boo!

read an excessive.
dearest noe why! got tongue tied pls!!!!! grrr tml how how!

i duno. get back to socio studying now!

ps; v random but..
i'm kinda proud of myself today. & i start to love gummy bear.
and i've a lil' tube of m&m in my bag. and gonna stock 'em slowly. since the cough of mine been much much better. time for the 2Cs soon! :D

~~= fat fat~~ :X

2009-05-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

如果问号能这么容易解开。。
它就不叫问号了。

对吧？ *inserts a v puzzled face*

ignore me. i'm jus thinking.
bt talkin to dear ying reali got me to smile. (:

2009-05-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

its silly of me to rmb the wrong date for my socio test. -.-today. i kept saying i've socio test tml. until.. oh yahh its on weds.

thus i wont online tml. but today yes! (:i'm gonna post the pics ytd up later i tink??
today fi was easy. but not the post lab. hell wads the use or readin lec notes in advance? ok i've no rights to say this ytd slept damn late 1:30am? 2am? so nvr read until the notes till the bus ride to sch today. tsk.

and fi ms mah was saying abt. food sci and nutri. seriously i'm v v much quite decided into the nutri field somehow. and eww hearing abt catering buffet for 30-60ppl? makes me a lil' winy bit xcited.

but agn i'd be afraid. cause even today the boiling of test tubes i'd covered my ears?? dont ask me why cover ears. i'm close to squatting down i swear if the test tubes in the beaker "jump" another time.

seriously dont know wads wrong with me. sth not v right within myself. somehow i've phobia somewhr. bt hehe the tot of learning how to cook. big meals= i'd cook for ppl i love. if i succeed. *dream* :X i lke the sensory cakes we helped coryn to do today. (x fun and yummy.

i'm sightly scared of disappointment that will come in the way.

pics ytd. (lazy upload..)

penguins love. (:

2009-05-24T23:52:00.001+08:00

a blast jus now. (:
with the darlings penguins +jh.

enjoyed myself. xcept astons the stupid waiter and waitress.
but mac's fun. pics taking lovely.

the night great to sum it up with. :D
loves great loves penguins!

sarah. 7 more mins now.
going 18! hope u enjoyed the night too. and the present.

everything i wanted to say its all in the card. love u loads darling. 5yr+ friendship arent easy at all. we made it. and many more yrs to come. spams *mwahs hugs* :D

eddited/
i wont be online tml. got my socio to study!! *PULLS HAIR GOES MAD*

ohh yah. guo jing song.
明白. i lke the lyrics. (:

2009-05-24T12:11:00.000+08:00

i'm done with FI report.
wonder did i do correctly not?

yayness. i'm now gettin guo jing song. (from erica!!)
and i've skipped breakfast. now gonna skip lunch too.

i wan my anderson ice cream!!

but acty i had sth in stomach. had 3 or 4 pieces of chips more.
just dont lke to eat this few days. but i'm eating dinner at night!! :D

random-ness. how the morning msn list damn pathethic. only sarah and jh whom i gt chat de online. and how jh told me he stuff himself with food. -.- and sarah love penguins. ps; me too!

and the msn list now gt dearest and erica.
i'm going to smile going crazy tonite!

pictures pls darlings. :D
and realised except eliza. the rest of us guai kia leh. hit 18 no vodka!!!

*you're always like this.when i try to approach u honestly u all step over my heart like its nothing. * a quote erica gav me. from boys over flower? i duno bt sounds so heart pain. i wan watch this show when i am damn freee.

2009-05-24T02:53:00.001+08:00

i'm dead tired.
time for bed. despite report not done. :(

wake up 930 instead bahh. v tired.
i guess tonite i'd slp better. (cause i munch a bread and drank a yakult an hr ago. yes at 2am)
very fattening i noe. bt shhh.

and also because i've felt better now.
at least some things are cleared. somehw i'm alwaes paranoid of things easily. but i'm also pretty easy to be assured in some sense. i duno. but tts how i am. xpeciali towards the one i care/love.

hmmm i reali nid some slp.
if not i'd look damn cui tml. (now alrdy v cui)

zzz. hug mickey.
but tonite w.o tears. (:

ps; 3am now.

2009-05-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

seee this.

Sarah('.') says:
love you love you

love you is soo sweet. (but is i *force* her say de)
alrite tml i shall seee her. (oioi sarah treat is it ahhhhh. *give the cutest smile i can manage*)

hmm i reali didnt noe how to blog the day.
i wasnt anyway agitate wasnt irritated. wasnt anything.

just v tired. a bad night agn ytd.
start to wonder past few days did i reali slp?

this cant go on. i nid my slp.
i nid my smile. i nid my laughter back. bt not gonna be this holi tt i find the last 2 back. :(

lets see wad happen today?
nth much. ohh yah i had bao for dinner and yet wasnt even hungry now. and the blur or rather stupid me had quite a few injuries today.

strain the right arm muscles. got cut by tape dispenser right finger.(wasnt deep one) the right hand 1st finger got kiap by a stack of notebooks. a lil' blueblack now. and wads best all right hand. lucky wasnt much pain now alrdy as long as i dun press 'em.

and lost my penknife today. sian.

sth happy to hear today. dearest coming back 2 days earlier den wad he acty said. so 19 days of count down. (:

hmm. i saw a gal carrying a bonquet of sunflower (only 1 big sunflower) and it looks reali lovely! haha mayb sunflower gonna be another flower i lke other than man tian xing and the roses tt make 'em strike out.

home time is still when i can say how the wk goes. bt somehw today wasnt any other day. mayb both v tired? i duno.

i'm too tired to reali tink abt the day. some other things on the mind.
chanting. i'm ok. i'm alrite. i'm fine.
~~which i'm everything but not.~~

ohhh yahh.
i misss dear ying ying!! :'(
i nid u!!! a hell loads.

2009-05-23T00:17:00.000+08:00

ytd sweetness last only awhile. :(
its gone after a nap.

its only dearest guessed dao how i was ytd.

today. i'm nt in the blogging mood. mind damn mixed up.
i dont lke the feeling of pretending i am alrite when i am not.

sudden heart pain (i mean real chest pain) and had to pretend i am fine.
cramping but i had to make it till i'm alrite.

slpless nights. fearful times.
waking up in middle of night or almost close to waking time but not by the alarm the past few days is pretty enough to strain me. to pretend to smile to make it throu' lke i am fine.

everything so not me. yet its so the me now.
it didnt feel good tt the many times today i had tears straining my eyes. painful. and yet i had to be stubborn to not let 'em fall. and i succeed somehow. didnt i?

the smiling moments i guess was with the usuals. despite not feeling lke meeting today (becox too much in my mind i noe today i'd be quiet) but the "secrets" with jh did made me smile. the thinking back of the sec sch days during bus ride. how i was the "nice one" made me smile.

and the great memories bought back. listening to 'em. how the life could acty innocently revolved and made memorable cause of tt someone back then? its all v easy. lke him/her becox of his/her lil' actions. lil' thoughts. when everything perished. maybe the you died tgt with the memories. but at least it turned out to be sth when u tink back u'd still smile now.

i didnt wan to say sorry. but i did.
but i didnt wan to say bye bye. not now not anymore. somehw i'm losing grip of everything. i dont know how. the feeling now sucks even more than the pain just now.

it feels weak tt the tears fall. and the eyes is damn painful.
but nopes. i'm just going to bed after this. working tml still.

*HUG MICKEY* slp tight.
if only its this easy.

dont tell me its alrite. dont ask me why.
i wont ans. i wont i wont i wont.

2009-05-21T13:28:00.000+08:00

wasnt goin to online tonite.
so goin blog 1st and offline.

yvonne is feeling.. better den ytd.
despite 620woke up by cramps. today wasnt as bad as ytd.

jus a lil' pain here and then. and csas3 finish off to do nls equiz.
i lke it when clique 6+say hian do the quiz tgt!! (: help each other.

and feeling v hungry. so goin eat lunch and take nap. (PIG)
and study fpqa tml. :( *SIAN*

BUT!!!! HERE TO BLOG CAUSE..
i'm feeling super duper ultra SWEEEEEET NOW!!!!

by who?? hehe. MY DEAR YING SMS! :D
really is sweet dao si msg. brightened my day. woots.

ps; my day oso brighten when.. today take bus to sch with hui!!
i tink i see her the most (other than laine) in penguins! :D

loves loves loves. wont be meetin her tml. but i hope soon soon!! (x
tml guess its with the usual clique? if the fpqa proj is done before dinner time. ^^

19more days to dearest trip.

2009-05-20T22:11:00.000+08:00

ohh yahh i forgt i wanted post sth ytd.
darling sarah bdae coming! *oi sarah quick tag love me!! bleah *bhb*

me so cant wait. another 1 into the 18yr old club. (:
and been a long time since the 6penguins gone on an outing tgt.

since me and laine bdae. = a mth+ AGO!
penguins i'm missing u all le. so lookin forward to sun.
loads of pics k!! spam spam pics k!! (x

and..
i tink fri!! with dear ying if everything cfm.
mission mission. i alwaes love missions. ^^

another 20days to dearest trip.

2009-05-20T21:13:00.000+08:00

not in the best mood today. :(
stomach cramps.

dont feel lke typing lengthy post.
but now feeling better thou' still pain.

bt hehe i had my new fav milk. UHT jus now for dinner. (:
and reali much better once home. tml another day in sch.

lucky short hrs. after csas 3 and doing of nls quiz its home.
den its slp! den read up on fpqa quiz.

dearest said wanted find me today. bt i noe i sure cry when see him.
HAHAHA dun ask me why but having a bad day when i see ppl i noe i can cry to i'd cry de. :( but i guess i really got him worried. whole time msg all spam :( and mood wasnt gd. hehe.

2009-05-19T20:29:00.000+08:00

ytd studied for apfs. so didnt online.
let me tink wad happen ytd??

nothing much xcept tasting of the sugars. in DI water and in milk. really disgusting. thou' i lke chocs alot bt i dun lke much of sweet stuff other that + ice cream. wads more ytd prac in milk? my fav mooooo! made gross. :X

and hmm. oh yah. asked dearest for some kind of decision i've made ytd. consider brave or stupid?? he said brave. but somehw i'm onto the stupid side i tink. i alwaes do things den i tink further the consequences. now i start to hav ~~lil' regrets.~~ do as much as i can dont regret.

and ytd night luckily i've finished my apfs revision when someone msged. kinda spoil my mood a lil'. he shuld have known a long time ago i wasnt a toy to be played with for me. random sms with me sucks. wasted 3 of my msg. (thou' i've unlimited bt u noe bu shuang!) GRR.

and there there today.
nls watched a video. (those interested mayb can try type neural birth defect on youtube and see some related links) but caution nt for weak heart. the video made my heart pain each babies with the defect. beautiful in a way they are hero of their own. really. somehw i couldnt' bear the scenes bt i force myself to watch throu' w.o blinking or covering my eyes.

its really nls making me grow in some sense. and i'm gettin more and more impress of mummies. the way how fetus is grow in tummy/womb. wonderful how life acty begin. (x

and then its apfs. boring. den its break. den its FI. got back to quiz. 8/15. thank god i've passed but if not for the 6m on anti staling.!! GRRR. den its apfs quiz. i tink i can pass the quiz. HOPEFULLY no hiccups along the way lah. but much more relieved after the quiz.

den tis socio. as usual hilarious lesson. (: but i've dozed off at 1 point. :X den went cheers buy a tuna puff and off to do nls. now its left the report. (x

i slp my way back on the bus. damn bloody tired. :(
i'm kinda addicted to farm town alrdy. HAHAHA!

and i'm an ultra happy gal talking to..
MY DEAR YING! hehehe. i'm v v really happy with wad she told me. ^^

really really lke the feeling of the best friend being xing fu tgt! (:
gets me even more have the blessed feel!! ^^

2009-05-17T23:56:00.001+08:00

i'm happy tt today the last pill of my antibiotic.
but mummy jus told me. tml she's goin to the family doc..

to get me a more effective flu medi & cough syrup. :(
i'm nt eating 'em tml. reason v simple. gets me slpy.

but i'd nid to recover v v soon.
time for bed in less than half hr time. the eyes giving its signals. :(

seeing doubles.

2009-05-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

*cough cough* snifff snifff*

tts how my day was spent. :( still sick.
bleah bleah. the day went on quite fine.

i do the returns with help of sk and yq.
but still its v tired and climbing up and down ladder today was abit scary. somehw it was scary. but still everything today wasnt tt horrible.

xcept tt i'm tired.
today lunch and dinner was alrite. but i tink i'm the youngest among the shift. :p

home time was still the best. as alwaes. (:

tml i wont be online.
so there. few more hrs to yl's bdae. (msg tml if i manage to rmb nowadaes keep forget to msg him eg; the previous result release of mine. i promised to msg bt in the end nvr. -.-)

another fellow into the 18yr old club.
happy 18 bdae yl! my longest best friend. *other than cindy kang duhh* (since pri 5=7+ yrs) wasnt easy to maintain a long friendship but i'm thankful to hav u as my santa of 07&08`. v impt= ace for a lvl!! and quick find ur dream gal. (:

2009-05-17T01:04:00.000+08:00

1:04am-
off to bed in 10mins time. w.o finishin the conclusion and observation of logbk.
duno hw to do 'em. :(

off to bed off to bed.
too many in the mind to generate. :(

2009-05-16T18:56:00.000+08:00

just checked my email. saw the email levina sent me.
the prac2 for FI pics. (:

this is how emulsions of mayonnaise looked under the microscope.

looks interesting huh. (:
but it arent as fun as it seems..

&oh shit wasnt in the mood to get myself onto the logbk writing. :(
the cough getting more and more frequent. and the flu arent stopping!!! bleahhh.

2009-05-16T14:36:00.000+08:00

bleah bleah.
no more fever.

but still not goin to work. at least nt with this weird voice.
mus somehw strain a lil' to get me vol. up. imagine speakin to customers and they mus HUH u cox they cant hear wad u mumbling. xpeciali when i'm nt in tokin mood.

i'd practically be talkin to myself tone. -.-
but my doc is smart i've no cough syrup.

now cough coming.
and i tink if i work today i'd kena from daddy.

cox morning i called him he said u dun work today hor. stay home!
he had alrdy even instruct mummy to tell me nt to work early in the morning before he head off to work. haha and constantly tellin me to eat medi eat medi.

seriously the pills sux. so much to swallow. quick recover den wont hav this things!

ta`da stay home read mag. hav the nose bleed and slp.

i'm going to recover soon.
after fever gone, everything else shuld be alrite. (: *i hope*

hopefully cough and flu gone soon. yvonne dun lke the sniffing of nose and the hip area v pain from coughing. xpeciali when sniffing gt my nose to bleed. :(

OHH YAHH. anyone cook me boiled vege boiled meat and lil' bit of rice?
hahaha was chatting with jh tts his meal now and slimmed alot!!! :D bt agn a meal with no seasoning gonna kill me.

after i'm recovered i'd stock my 2cs agn. ^^ soon soon.

somehw sick. alot of concerns from the loved ones.
getting 'em worried. bt no worries ppl i'm well v soon. (:

2009-05-15T22:30:00.000+08:00

online bt the eyes cant focus
= pure staring at the lappy.

doing practically nth. :( :(
i'm suppose to be doing sth!!!!!! GRRR.

bt the mind damn blank. duno hw to structure my thinking.
really dun lke to be sick. makes me even more vulnerable. :X

slping earlier today. 1130 or before tt.
the medi taking its effect.

2009-05-15T20:48:00.000+08:00

afterall i'm still glad i went sch today. (:
loads of impt things to take note of.

despite morning telling dearest i regret going sch liao. cox i was feeling reali bad. body feels damn weak. yet not slpy. grr.

fpqa quiz freaking me. :( bt i ate fever medi at tt time le. feels hot and dearest win liao!! :p
fi lec is alrite bt kinda blurred at some point.

nls learnt abt pregnancy. eww women damn wei da pls. hav to gain an avg. of 12.5kg during pregnancy and hav morning sickness and cant slp lying flat. and loads lehhh!! gosh gosh. and saw pics of fetus in mum's stomach. so cute. (: the onli lesson i tink i'm more awake. hehe.

after which did the food works at com lab. and off to library with yanfang&chinying. initially i was feeling alrite. den suddenly feel lke vomitting. damn wth went toliet at lvl 8 gents. -.- went down the stairs to 7lvl 4 or 5 gals cramped inside a mini toliet.

in the end= nvr go vomit. borrowed a bk and took cab home. kinda jump ppl queue in cabbing. yf said she tink she kena stared by tt guy. haha.

but i shuldnt even took tt cab. kallang airport the driver stil repeat for me. in the end jammed and he bought me to kallang bahru. -.- wth and he keep scold me. scold scold and sighh and at traffic junction he even let go his hand to fold arm. -.-

tot i didnt hav enough money to cab becox of the driver. den when dearest called me tt time i was close to tears le. in the cab alone with an angry driver. :'( and laine called tt time i stopped tearing. bt lucky he charge me 12bucks nt 16bucks. GRRR (ps; the cab in blue duno wad company thou')

came home gt nag by daddy abt why go sch. and tskkk i've gt dearest damn worried. he wanted send me home bt i dun let dun wan him sick oso. bt was all the while feeling v uncomfortable. cold hot cold hot. :(

had porridge damn colorful one. but ate less than half. no appetite. :(

tml might nt work if fever still. for now.
doubt i've fever cox the medi working out. bt jus now was 38.1 degree. :(

25days to dearest trip.

2009-05-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

summarised the day.
csas3 was bad. 40mcqs i cant reali do. :( left before the test acty end becox of the air condition. a bump on the head during csas3. den its lab boring somhw i cant see the purpose in apfs. -.-

2 cuts on 2 fingers the same one on both hands. by? paper.
damn sway tt is. and i'm feeling damn bu shu fu then alrdy.

done socio quiz. 24/30. with help of wiki and levina's tb. (:

den its home time. (:
i've a v sweet dearest. ^^ thankyou alot. Y

den its home. slp lke pig till ard 7pm. den its i woke up. cried. (felt bloody weak from crying cox i'm sick) damn body ache and headache. and feeling damn hot. daddy gt me a thermometer (tt apparently his company gav 'em or wad) and measured. 38.6 -.-

den its seeing of family doc fever=38.1. ate 5mouthfuls of rice and drank some soup. feeling full cox i drank milk. and laine was saying abt if i alwaes sick she'd treat me better (cox tonite she treat me v nice!) thx ah me dun wan sick.

& me got dearest worried. :(
bt i'd recover. hopefuly tml i'd still be in sch.

wads killing was the medi. 3pills to swallow.
bt thank god lozenges doc gav was nice. (:

26days to dearest trip.

2009-05-13T20:30:00.000+08:00

*snifffffff* x10000000000th times. :(
this is irritating me.

ytd fast forward. didnt online becox i was studying for test.
food ingredients tt was.

and today my 6m i cant do. when i noe i memorised anti staling till wow. bt i duno hw apply to the ques to the theory. damn shittttttt. :(:(

socio lec quite alrite. the screenin of hw lip tattoo was done gross me. bt i didnt shut my eyes i jus covered 'em up. HAHAHA.

and well the day goes on. fpqa=loads to do.
= i'm dying. = SIGHHHH.

went library to zap the things. THIS REMIND ME my cashcard with mahes. -.- hope she rmb return me tml. the infrared of zapping makes me giddy and headache. and tskkk my $$ in the cashcard. heng it was onli 2cents per paper.

and clique 6 went out of sch to eat.
i'm hungry and finished off the whole of my ramen. wahaha and strawberry milk tea quite nice lehhh. (x and had my new ezlink alrdy.

apfs boring to death. lec i was able to stay wake. bt during video screening (which benefit the grp doing mango salad more) i doze off. yanfang talk to me and i didnt reply. she turned and realized i'm in my lala land. tsk. the headache damn killing me then alrdy.

den its let me tink. nls lab. as usual kinda fun. (:
bt the hw tt had to be done wasnt fun at all.

ohh yahh tts when my sneezing attack came. till now. despite home and slpt for 1hr. *SNIFFFF* this is damn making me v v uncomfortable. shall eat medi at 1030pm and slp later when effect come. now way too early for bed.

i went ntuc today. after sch. HEHEHE i spent 10bucks to buy 5items. damn proud of myself. was suppose to buy 2yakult bt in order to keep to my budget. i bought 1 nia. HAHA and my orange juice. woots i wont be goood cook bt i can be good at grocery buying. (x

laine jus now ask. gt diff meh. eat at 1030 and effect come slp? haha to me gt lahhh. bleahhh. :p

end of entry.
i'm utterly disappointed in myself. sth i mus admit. :(

27more days to dearest trip.
21 days to his bak.

2009-05-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

*yawn yawn*
was how my day started out. v damn slpy. yet i nvr slp on the way to bedok. den from bedok to sch i slp. and the stupid bus suddenly jerked. i woke up duhh. and almost knock onto the guy sitting beside me. damn malu.

den its nls tut. as usual the tutor was fun and reali make the class v interesting. (: den its break time. was v hungry den alrdy. haha den had lunch and off for fi prac.

oh yahh. talk abt fi prac. this morning i realised i've forgt cut nails and had the wrong labcoat in my bag. -.- kinda rush to cut the nails. bt thank god nails wasnt precious to me. so jus snap den ok liao. :p

dun lke food lab cox had to take of accessories. watch+bracelet+necklace. damn scared the bracelet lost. but food lab today was nice. the grp members (levina. lilian. jui wei. rochelle) was really gd!! we distributed the work and blahhh.

bt my whisker i didnt noe the speed was tuned. thus when the switch was on. omg freaked out. seriously tink if future i hav a kitchen of my own. i'd reali either this spoil tt spoil. haha.

and the cake was burnt on top. bt quite nice in taste. the mayo jiu.. KNS sour si. eeks vinegar. (i nvr dislke eatin vinegar bt white vinegar seriously i dun lke) bt our cake used duno hw many egg yolk w.o egg white somemore. imagine the lvl of cholesterol in jus 1 cake???

bt its quite fun la. minus the technical report we nid to submit in 2wks time. tt is reali omg. but thankfully the lab members all shared our findings and results. (x this make work somehw easier.

den its launch of fpqa package 1.2 sighh barely one wk of rest from the internet sourcing and library bks finding. now its bak to projs. damn stressful abt this. den we were released.

went com lab to do fpqa 1.1 ppt and later left at 5+. damn tired. bt still i went ahma hse to find joycelyn. wait for her hm from sch. she cant recognised me. *sad* bt later she recognised me. so damn cute i keep asked her to hug me. human soft toy. (x

den she fed me biscuit and we took some pics using my now v v lousy hp. v lousy faces of mine. HAHA when pics with her alwaes i nid to make funny face to pei he her. if nt i'd look so old. hmm. and later she cried. so poor thing.

and come to me sajiao. i gt her to do her "homework" and supposed put down parents name bt i wrote mine down. help her draw snail. heartshape balloon. rabbit. a face. using curves. i'm talented with kids.

den its dinner time. v full. den home.
watched abit of ch8. damn damn sweet. weddings.

i'd find the smiles back. i'd try.

2009-05-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

wad a day. *YAWN*

today let me recall.
morning. dearest msg. he ask me i gt wake up becox of thunder? i didnt noe. too tired and slp lke pig. and he said he woke up ytd nite cox of tt and tink charm duno i gt scared by it nt. HAHA damn sweet. (: bt hehe on air con and v tired= wont scared.

and off to work. my hands damn dry from the cleaning of racks. tskk. and today i did loads of stuff. alot alot. this and tt. arranging and blahh. was on same shift with dearest and the rest. (:

almost fall from stairs once today. this is nth.
wads next was. rhys. -.- he scared the hell out of me i was on the ladder and he make some motor noise and touch till the ladder. I SCERAMED! damn freaked out pls. :'( den his there laughing. grrrr.

den my hands was kinda shaking somehw still from the fright den i droped a whole stack of compo ex bks. and dearest helped put 'em on to the top of racks. human ladder! (x

den hmm i seriously now kinda scared of the motor noise. bleahx once scared from sth i'd be scared of it for some time. den dinner time i had soup. (strange tt i arent hungry till now) and was muttering to myself. tt dearest say i'd reali become autistic. HAHA! funny. i wont i jus subconciously sometimes talk to myself.

den ermm. day goes on pretty fast. den its home time. seriously i tink if do alot things the day 'll pass by faster? den went home. nw blog and with ying and doing some stuff. sigh.

peer evaluation ms mah sent wrong to our grp. sian. bleah. tml a long long day. arent anticipating it at all. sometimes i lke wkend better.

OHH YAHH MOTHERS' DAY.
despite the house dun celebrate mothers' day. bt i love my mummy loads loads. hopefully one day she'd reali unds me. (:

2009-05-09T22:53:00.000+08:00

EDITTED;
just finish off the fi tut. i'm damn sure i'm doing it the nt correct way. bt my eyes shutting and seriously feeling damn lost abt this topic. I NID COMPASS for this. grrrrrrr.

nice chat with ying tonite. (as usual duh)!!! i lke the lyrics of a song by kit chan.
intro-ed by ying!! 喜欢你 (: "我喜欢这样跟着你随便你带我到哪里" the part i lke. ^^

off to bed. if not tml a panda is there. bleahhx.

end of edit. (x

ytd nite. didnt hav a gd nite slp. bt at least no nightmare monsters are pestering me.
for once when i tink before i slp i dun gt haunt by nitemares.

morning msging with dearest. yup i agree my tone ytd was agitated to some xtent. i shuld hav said tt word. shuldnt at all. ~~*****~~ i didnt noe why bt i thought tt way ytd nite. bt yup he agree ytd his fierce. boobooo!

vesak day. wasnt a busy one.
tsk. i was acty kinda free.

bt doing the montone stuff. packing arranging packing.
den today eating shift was with dearest. althou' lunch was a bore. bt dinner was better. (:

den its home time. (fast forward..)
saying things out often stimulate my thinking. bt in a way positive ones. at least i'd unds things more. althou' i dun lke to think bt when it concern the both of us i'd spent alot time thinking. contradicting bt i'm selfish de. bleahx.

sometimes the human mind. i gt tired of figuring. but yet cant heck. but anyhw i lke it when i can share hw i tink. (: